early thurs morning and the odac-ers are having a crazy mass convo talking abt gruesome leeches
BAHH, so FREAKY . and ben asked, 'will there be crocodiles?' HAHAH! i almost burst out laughing like mad. fighting leeches and crocs at the same time ;D hahahha! who ever thot of a croc on a mountain. hahahah!
;DDD these ppl really brighten up my night by talkin and crapping with them you know!
HAHAHAH!

and i was talking to spastic seaweed pig maniac! hehe! who keeps laughing nonstop and it's contagious. so i laughed nonstop with her. omg, freaking funny. i laughed till i got high and cant stop! hehe!

okay! and so here's another person to add on to the 'i miss you' list! heh! JAYNE DONGSAENG! lucky girl, she's gg to korea! omg, can u imagine KOREA! SEOUL! hahah! i'd miss you girl! i;d miss spazzing with u abt bohae! cos they're such loves! ;D haha! and that pic was soooo cute! booo! may u meet ur min and take a pic with him! heheh! so u wont have to photoshop (like what i retardedly love doing) hahahahaha! ;D dont faint when u see bohae! ;D take care girl! i miss you and i look forward to seeing you again okay! ;DDD i really hope i can make it for the 2nd gathering! been almost half a yr since i saw u all ;( hahaha!

okay!!! ot's in F-O-U-R days time! and bleags, im gg out with lingy , tam and yeewen on fri! oh no, there goes my diet. goneeee!!!! ;( hahahahha! but i hope i wont eat too much! not too much i pray! ;D LAUGHS! yay!!

fan decided to be a good girl, she'd finish two chapters of chem and two chapters of math tml.
AND SHE WILL PERSEVERE TO FINISH what she promised ;D

resolution for the holidays :
FAN SIA'S GOING ON A DIET FROM TODAY ONWARDS ;) (till she loses 3 kg O.O)
do NOT (and i emphasize, NOTTTT) tempt her with good food (gd healthy food is fine)/ fattening food ;D

alrights, im gg off for training now ;D

BAHHHH!! BIG BULLIES ATTACK! ;( i cant believe stupid ting and shifu are ganging up to bully this poor girl here ;( hahah! im deeply saddened by this fact. HAHAHA! considering the fact that one's my shifu and the other is playmate ;/ what's the world coming to man!

ANYW! woke up early morning (well, not too early) 9.30am! and went to sch for LOVELY (note the sarcasm) PW, oh so lovely. hahahahah! till now, i still DONT understand the rationale for bloody PW which gives me headaches the moment i think abt it.
HAHAH! okayy! so went off to meet tam and sijia for SPIDEEYYY 3! omg, like finally, i get to watch spidey! heh!! omg, i was freezing cold in the cinema! and yes, tam, sijia and me almost died of overwhelming sweetness of candy floss. BAAHAH, it's SOOOOO SWEET that we can die of diabetes, but i kept eating it anyw! and then and then, we MET with LORENA! ;D and WALKED to somerset to take neos. hahah! NEOS! happy happy! and the most impt thing is it LOOKS NICE! hahah!

and then, tammy has to leave. sijia,lorena and i decided to have an early dinner (after much debating and finally, TOSSING COIN) at kobayashi. haha BUDGET BUDGET! and that's when we decided to have an extreme makeover for sijia! HEHEH! we decided to shop ard and make her try clothes that she'd nv ever think of wearing. hahahah!! shopped like crazy, from heeren to far east then to wisma! omg, been long since i even shopped this way and do all that crazy stuff with this two crazy kids! heh! we're still kids/teenagers so it's NOT surprising to see three crazy girls laughingg and doing weird things. hahahahaha! omg, i laughed like crazy when i shop with them really. and i miss it. i miss how we can actually do such STUPID/weeetarded stuff together!

AND GLUTTONY US decided to have our fill (time of yummilicious desserts!) at gelare! WHEEEHEEE! budget-ish lorena BRILLIANTLY RMBED that it's a tuesday and GELARE waffles are on 1/2 price! heh! okay, camwhored heaps with the icecreams, and we sure look like gluttons, DIGGING STRAIGHT at the waffles upon seeing them! heh! i still rmb how the other customers savour it slowly, while we just gobbled two plates of waffles up in less than 15 mins ;D that's how freaky we are! WAHAAH!! and after that, we went to wisma! HEH! SPENT A LONG TIME in topshop, forever 21 and ripcurl! OMG, i saw this gorgeous black/purple striped shirt with a hood in ripcurl ;D gosh, i want it sooo much. but it's EXPENSIVE ;/ ahah and BUDGET-ish LORENA decided to fulfil her desire and bought a 23 bucks - necklace. hahha ;D talk abt budget, dear!

;D but shopping with them is LOVE! i so miss them! and yes, suddenly we talked abt not being able to scream and act retardedly in public doing stupid things anymore just a few yrs later when we're no longer 16 or 17, where we're supposed to be mature and everything else. losing the child innocence and fun i suppose! ;D heheh! it's kinda sad and we pray these days dont come THAT FAST YET! ;D

i love blogging abt happy stuff! and guess what, SPASTIC SEAWEED IS IN ACTION AGN! HEH! she's contagiously making EVERYONE ard her laugghhhh like MAD ;D hahahahaah!!!!! nighs and oh my tian girl! dont lose your voice laughing k, even tho i think i'd enjoy laughing ALOT with you when we're up on the mountains where the laughters will hopefully scare off all the LEECHES ;DD and whoohoo, i cant wait for backpacking holidays! ;D WE MUST GO!

okayyy, im beginning to miss so many ppl who're away! ;(
i miss ah gor! i miss shifu! i miss lameo! i miss jingxuan! i miss nic! (haha, in order of the dates they leave) obviously, the longer the duration i dont see them, i miss them even more! take care people! and know that there's someone out here missing you people out there ;DD stay healthy and you ppl are love ;D pls kp safe ;)) i'd pray for u all.

yay! pw session just finished. i shall leave pw till tml ;D my brain's dead for now ;DD
YAY! slping time = bliss + joy + sweet dreams of ppl i love! ;))

5 days to OT ;DDDDD (and 5 beautiful days to the war with leeches (but truly, responsible seaweed's laughters will scare them away. so it's safe with her ard!) ;DD

BOO! heh! pioneering+fieldcooking today! HAHA!
omg, i hate termites. they're soooo disgustinggg; ahahah!
but yeah, learning to deal with them and yes! finally, we did our first session of fieldcooking today! haha! okay, kaili and i were getting cabbage high cos we ate 7 servings of cabbages! ;DDD lovely. it's seriously yummy okay! HAHAHAH!

went to watch PIRATES with some of the odac-ers after that! heh! omg, it was a gd show after all ;D at least it's a movie watched! and im gg to watch movie with tam and sijia! SPIDEY SPIDEY! my longawaited spidey! ;D cant wait! hahahaha!

alrights,needa go now, still gotta be in sch for pw tml morninggg ;)

BOOGIIE! hehh! sch hols' finally here! and GUESS WHAT!!
OT'S GG TO BE HERE IN A MERE 7 DAYS TIME! ;D
omgg, the thot of OT is like simply excitinggg! wheehee~ and congrats to all who are 2-star kayakers now! XDD(bahh, i still feel myself bobbing up and down as if im on the sea) wheeeheeeee! happy happy and for the others, dont worry!!!! you guys are gg to get it soon ;D

25/05/07;
FULL DAY for all of vjc students;D haha!! it was like really expected, but i still enjoyed the fact that there's a FULL DAY! so there was supposed to be pt but due to some interruptions such as extra lessons and SPA, we didnt do much. some of us den went to parkway to get first aid supplies ! and RUSHED back like mad for match support at toa payoh for vj bball girls! haha! they're PRO!;D omgg, it was like really excitingg and the scores were really close. cheered till our throats were sore and voices hoarse ;) but it was realli delighting when VJ BBALL GIRLS WON!
anyw, vj soccer girls fought hard and well! ;D great job still!
and congrats to cel and tammy and beatrice ;D heh!!

26/06/07;
a FREAKING RUSHED day overall. heh! woke up freaking late and started chionging for 2-star kayaking course. oh god, and probably the fact that i started my day chionging, the rest of it carried on the trend;D hahah! expedition on the sea! and heh! felt rather drained! but we completed it! yay! and after that went to beach road to buy camping bag for OT! hahah! wheehee bought a 50litres bag at 50 bucks. pretty good bargain ;D yay!
after dinner at army mkt, freaking waited for bus 100 to take to kallang mrt, but it took soooo longgg! omg, was panicking like mad! bahhh! thank god i cabbed down to tanah merah to take mrt to airport! met shannon on the way and saw the rest at airport to send shifu off to overseas training! heh ;D gambate shifu! ;D aja aja hwaiting!
bahhh, we slacked awhile in the airport and took the last bus 34 out of airport. thank god we ran for thebus. hahah! felt so stranded on the bus and took cab home ;) heaps of cabbing today. heh!

27/07/07
KAYAKING! heh! it's fun and we love it. but we all agree excessive kayaking makes u feel lazy and worse, i still feel like im bobbing up and down! WAHAHHH, alrights! managed to get my cert! happy happy! WHEE!! finally managed to go home early to catch my tv show and finally, im home earlier den mommy and daddy. and they seemed really happy abt it ;) hahahahh!
right!


7 days to OT!

TWO STAR KAYAKING COURSE day one today went pretty smoothly at CHANGI BEACH! nods, capsizing drills with spray-skirts in the disgusting river and then had fun practising/revising strokes out in the sea ;D
cant wait for expedition on day 2!

after kayaking, went for dinner with jol, siewhwee, wanping and alan didi at fish & co! heh, the food is like totally 'to-die-for' haha! XD yay! felt so sinful. ;D but it doesnt matter. that's not the main pt, the main pt is, I DIDNT MANAGE TO WATCH MY SHOW ;( and im freaking sad. haha! stupid mommy, daddy and sister are suaning me, and shifu's laughing/gloating at my misfortune. BLEAGS

hahaah! but it's alright, i shall watch tml! heh!
alright, im currently addicted to the song, 'that's when i love you', intro-ed by siewhwee! OMG! it;s so nice;D heh! i swear it's gg to be on repeat mode when she sends me the song, so right now, i survive on listenin' to the song on her blog;D haha! and the lyrics are already posted ;) heh! nice sweet lyrics. heh!




(i wish you'd spare more thoughts for my feelings)

THAT'S WHEN I LOVE YOU

When you have to look away
When you don't have much to say
Thats when i love you, i love you, just that way

To hear you stumble when you speak
or see you walk with two left feet
Thats when i love you, i love you endlessly

And when your mad 'cause you lost a game
forget i'm waiting in the rain
baby i love you, i love you anyway

CHORUS
cause heres my promise made tonight
you can count on me for life
'cause thats when i love you
when nothing you do can change my mind
The more i learn, the more i love,
the more my heart can't get enough
Thats when i love you, when i love you no matter what

So when you turn to hide your eyes
'cause the movie it made you cry
thats when i love you, i love you a little more each time

and when you can't quite match your clothes
or when you laugh at your own jokes
thats when i love you, i love you more then you know

and when you forget that we had a date
or that look you give when you show up late
baby i love you, i love you anyway

CHORUS

oooh oooh thats when i love you
when nothing baby, nothing you do could change my mine
the more i learn, the more i love, the more my heart can't get enough
thats when i love you, when i love you, no matter what
ooooh oooh, no matter what

finally finished compiling first aid notes and posted on the web, so odac-ers, pls check blog k!XD
heh! omg, we're finally level-one rockclimbers! XD yay! which is totally a great achievement =D happy happy! wheehee, was so happy that i could actually climb to the top (before the overhang lah duhh;))! yay great job everyone! we sure did have fun tying many figure-of-eights =D

ayee, and yeah, i hope my leg WILL BE WELL enough by OT! haha! so that it wont ache when i climb or im seriously gg to DIE =/ like really DIE =/ hhaha! but i pray not! heh! alrights, fan finally realised the imptance of every single cent when she encountered the most unlucky thing on friday night.

just when i was thinking and feeling good abt stepping into yiochukang mrt station once again (haha, great memories and a sense of nostalgia for st nicks), my ezlink card ran outta cash. and it so happens that i was penniless (except for some few pathetic coins - tencents, twentycents) and jolene too was penniless. after much digging out and squeezing out of coins, i only managed to get 1.80, which was still 30cents short for buying of standard ticket. so i did the most freaking spastic thing in the world, heh, i had to ask a grp of ladies if they could give me 30cents. like wth. but thank god, they were kind enough to lend this poor soul who is unable to go home a hand. and can you imagine, when i got the money, i was exclaiming, 'i can finally go home!' which is really a sense of relief! XD

yay! so moral of the day, EVERY SINGLE CENT COUNTS!

ANYW, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY! MOMMY, I LOVE YOU! <3 stay healthy and always HAPPY!

and so i've been thinking alot just now...
where's the ever-so-optimistic fansia,
where's the ever-so-hyper, crazy fanatic fansia
and where's the ever-so-happy girl who keeps harping on the fact that if one day she ever gets into depression, it'd be the joke of the yr.

and so, i did the stupidest thing ever in my life. i crazily read the archives of my blog and there, i found sth that i always say whenever i feel i couldnt cope, whenever things get outta hand.

positive mindsets set everything going!

im gg to stand by this, because that was sth i so believed in. i believe we can do this, we can do it and we SHALL do it.

so heck abt what's gg to happen, heck abt what nasty thingys there are because THEY ARE NOT GG TO RUIN my wonderful life XD i've got great family, great friends, great people ard me. there's no reason why i want them to worry for me ;D

so, no more emo sessions from now on (no more talks in the gym alley/canteens/outside libraries XD), no more emo/depressed fansia, no more no more all that shyt. ;D SHOO SHOO SHOO! and if anything, im gg to settle them and put everything back into pace because i need, i want and i demand my life to be back to normal.

yay! expect = get! (adam khoo's workshop) haha! it's not too difficult to deceive myself after all. hahah! expect - get. so if i expect myself to be sad and emo over such stuff, i sure will be. so if i expect myself to still be tough in situations like this, oh sure i'd be! XDD so yay, i'd choose the latter. ;) so that's more like it. im feeling more myself now.

HAHA! oh yeah, fanny is a SMART girl! heh! she guessed sijia's (gu-niang's) new specs color! hahah! dark purple + red. whoohoo! did i mention i love royal purple. yay babe! u're becomeing more gu-niang. and dont try to deny it. good luck for syf tml okay! heh! u btr play ur best -stares- hahah and i look forward to watching movie with you since u said we hadnt watched a single film together even tho i've known u for 4 yrs + ! (are u serious?)

thanks to everyone who's been concerned over this crazily emo and mood swingy girl here for the past few days/ or a week at least. heh!! i really appreciated that, but let's put it on a good note : say bye to emo-istic girl! XD yeps, so such stuff probably makes ppl stronger and see things in a btr perspective =D

i realised, tough times like this only moulds a better, tougher and stronger person and makes you see who your real friends are ;) so yeah, i pray everyone's gg to pull out of unhappiness and emo-ness becos we're NOT born to belong there XD and may god bless everyone to seek their happiness and guide their way through all difficulties and unhappiness ;D




and to izzah dear : i know things can get pretty complicated and hard, and even outta hand. but im sure you'd be able to make things right becos u're the SMARTY EVIL BUDDY! but i was glad im able to say something decent to make you feel btr dear! XD u're welcome my dear and pls dont be sad. take things in ur stride alright! evil buddies for life! XDD -a nice bigg bigg bigg HUG!- no kisses for now, i promise XP but you know what's gg to happen if..... XD

so that's a pretty pretty long post. lovely days ahead i bet and definitely, i'd enjoy looking at nice white clouds even more! they give peace. if you dont believe, try it ;D

shoo those nasty thingys away; that's how you'd be HAPPY ;D
thanks lameooo girl, i'd rmb that. somehow this is gotta be the ONE and ONLY best advice you gave me in my entire life. haha, shyt abt that climb under the table when there's earthquake advice. haha! it's COMMON knowlege, my dear ;)

okay, i guess i failed in being happy again today, which was kinda retarded and stupid. bleags, sorry that i was being so retardly stupidly and mentally dumb today ppl. heh, unhappiness KILLS. SO im gg to stay FAR away from it XD

but thanks to shifu and ting for being ever so INNOVATIVE ;D

pioneering test tml, sucks. hahah! think i'd just flunk it. not for the practical part tho, but for the theory. eeks. pioneering chiefs, pls have mercy on us XDD

.

i care because you're my friend. im disappointed because friends do not doubt each other. it's really saddening to know that you dont even trust in me tho we've been friends for years. you should truly know what kinda person i am. i swear it was a pure misunderstanding and pls dont let such a dumb thing spoil our friendship because i care if i ever lose you as a friend ;)

i hate myself right now.
i hate it when im feeling low; when im feeling totally unmotivated.
EEKS, there's simply no time for me to procrastinate abt anything because there's a huge stack of stuff waiting for me to complete them

INdecisiveness SUCKS and i DEMAND MY HAPPINESS TO BE BACK!



on a happpier note: yay, we survived spring cleaning! hahaha! stories are cool people! cos we completed clearing the store a few hrs before deadline! yay! efficient! heh! the room ppl did a great job too! heh, we have a more dust-free room now! yay!XDDD 24th rocks!

gonna blog it fast before i'd go and have a nice slp and slp every single thing away.
bwahh, seriously, these few days seem to become worse and worse each time and no matter how much i try to pull myself away from what i didnt want, it just somewhat gravitated to me. i dont want and dont wish to think abt certain stuff, but they keep pestering my thoughts and invading my mind.

i need a serious break from everything (tho im damn sure it's super impossible:/) sorry ppl that i've not been myself these few days. i've been wondering where has all the joy and happiness gone to and there seems to be a serious lack of motivation for me to do anything. but nonetheless, thanks to those who are willing to lend an ear to what i always rant and ramble abt. truly, i was really glad that you guys were there for me when i was feeling down/crazy/dumb... really, i couldnt thank you guys enough, yeah, i really love you all! XD

okayyy, so im taking this weekend for me to return back to the jumpy, happy fanny. haha! XD according to cynthia, it rhymes! XD haha! happy fanny. hahah! yay, i wish!

wahaha! i was so happy and delighted hearing that jasmine tan was gg to date us for harry potter - order of pheonix! XD omg, it was such a happy moment; cleared my stupid thoughts abt stupid decisions to make away! XDD

alright, i need a gd slp now before i go to sch tml at EARLY 8am. for spring cleaning at the odac store. wonderful.

early thurs morning and the odac-ers are having a crazy mass convo talking abt gruesome leeches
BAHH, so FREAKY . and ben asked, 'will there be crocodiles?' HAHAH! i almost burst out laughing like mad. fighting leeches and crocs at the same time ;D hahahha! who ever thot of a croc on a mountain. hahahah!
;DDD these ppl really brighten up my night by talkin and crapping with them you know!
HAHAHAH!

and i was talking to spastic seaweed pig maniac! hehe! who keeps laughing nonstop and it's contagious. so i laughed nonstop with her. omg, freaking funny. i laughed till i got high and cant stop! hehe!

okay! and so here's another person to add on to the 'i miss you' list! heh! JAYNE DONGSAENG! lucky girl, she's gg to korea! omg, can u imagine KOREA! SEOUL! hahah! i'd miss you girl! i;d miss spazzing with u abt bohae! cos they're such loves! ;D haha! and that pic was soooo cute! booo! may u meet ur min and take a pic with him! heheh! so u wont have to photoshop (like what i retardedly love doing) hahahahaha! ;D dont faint when u see bohae! ;D take care girl! i miss you and i look forward to seeing you again okay! ;DDD i really hope i can make it for the 2nd gathering! been almost half a yr since i saw u all ;( hahaha!

okay!!! ot's in F-O-U-R days time! and bleags, im gg out with lingy , tam and yeewen on fri! oh no, there goes my diet. goneeee!!!! ;( hahahahha! but i hope i wont eat too much! not too much i pray! ;D LAUGHS! yay!!

fan decided to be a good girl, she'd finish two chapters of chem and two chapters of math tml.
AND SHE WILL PERSEVERE TO FINISH what she promised ;D

resolution for the holidays :
FAN SIA'S GOING ON A DIET FROM TODAY ONWARDS ;) (till she loses 3 kg O.O)
do NOT (and i emphasize, NOTTTT) tempt her with good food (gd healthy food is fine)/ fattening food ;D

alrights, im gg off for training now ;D

BAHHHH!! BIG BULLIES ATTACK! ;( i cant believe stupid ting and shifu are ganging up to bully this poor girl here ;( hahah! im deeply saddened by this fact. HAHAHA! considering the fact that one's my shifu and the other is playmate ;/ what's the world coming to man!

ANYW! woke up early morning (well, not too early) 9.30am! and went to sch for LOVELY (note the sarcasm) PW, oh so lovely. hahahahah! till now, i still DONT understand the rationale for bloody PW which gives me headaches the moment i think abt it.
HAHAH! okayy! so went off to meet tam and sijia for SPIDEEYYY 3! omg, like finally, i get to watch spidey! heh!! omg, i was freezing cold in the cinema! and yes, tam, sijia and me almost died of overwhelming sweetness of candy floss. BAAHAH, it's SOOOOO SWEET that we can die of diabetes, but i kept eating it anyw! and then and then, we MET with LORENA! ;D and WALKED to somerset to take neos. hahah! NEOS! happy happy! and the most impt thing is it LOOKS NICE! hahah!

and then, tammy has to leave. sijia,lorena and i decided to have an early dinner (after much debating and finally, TOSSING COIN) at kobayashi. haha BUDGET BUDGET! and that's when we decided to have an extreme makeover for sijia! HEHEH! we decided to shop ard and make her try clothes that she'd nv ever think of wearing. hahahah!! shopped like crazy, from heeren to far east then to wisma! omg, been long since i even shopped this way and do all that crazy stuff with this two crazy kids! heh! we're still kids/teenagers so it's NOT surprising to see three crazy girls laughingg and doing weird things. hahahahaha! omg, i laughed like crazy when i shop with them really. and i miss it. i miss how we can actually do such STUPID/weeetarded stuff together!

AND GLUTTONY US decided to have our fill (time of yummilicious desserts!) at gelare! WHEEEHEEE! budget-ish lorena BRILLIANTLY RMBED that it's a tuesday and GELARE waffles are on 1/2 price! heh! okay, camwhored heaps with the icecreams, and we sure look like gluttons, DIGGING STRAIGHT at the waffles upon seeing them! heh! i still rmb how the other customers savour it slowly, while we just gobbled two plates of waffles up in less than 15 mins ;D that's how freaky we are! WAHAAH!! and after that, we went to wisma! HEH! SPENT A LONG TIME in topshop, forever 21 and ripcurl! OMG, i saw this gorgeous black/purple striped shirt with a hood in ripcurl ;D gosh, i want it sooo much. but it's EXPENSIVE ;/ ahah and BUDGET-ish LORENA decided to fulfil her desire and bought a 23 bucks - necklace. hahha ;D talk abt budget, dear!

;D but shopping with them is LOVE! i so miss them! and yes, suddenly we talked abt not being able to scream and act retardedly in public doing stupid things anymore just a few yrs later when we're no longer 16 or 17, where we're supposed to be mature and everything else. losing the child innocence and fun i suppose! ;D heheh! it's kinda sad and we pray these days dont come THAT FAST YET! ;D

i love blogging abt happy stuff! and guess what, SPASTIC SEAWEED IS IN ACTION AGN! HEH! she's contagiously making EVERYONE ard her laugghhhh like MAD ;D hahahahaah!!!!! nighs and oh my tian girl! dont lose your voice laughing k, even tho i think i'd enjoy laughing ALOT with you when we're up on the mountains where the laughters will hopefully scare off all the LEECHES ;DD and whoohoo, i cant wait for backpacking holidays! ;D WE MUST GO!

okayyy, im beginning to miss so many ppl who're away! ;(
i miss ah gor! i miss shifu! i miss lameo! i miss jingxuan! i miss nic! (haha, in order of the dates they leave) obviously, the longer the duration i dont see them, i miss them even more! take care people! and know that there's someone out here missing you people out there ;DD stay healthy and you ppl are love ;D pls kp safe ;)) i'd pray for u all.

yay! pw session just finished. i shall leave pw till tml ;D my brain's dead for now ;DD
YAY! slping time = bliss + joy + sweet dreams of ppl i love! ;))

5 days to OT ;DDDDD (and 5 beautiful days to the war with leeches (but truly, responsible seaweed's laughters will scare them away. so it's safe with her ard!) ;DD

BOO! heh! pioneering+fieldcooking today! HAHA!
omg, i hate termites. they're soooo disgustinggg; ahahah!
but yeah, learning to deal with them and yes! finally, we did our first session of fieldcooking today! haha! okay, kaili and i were getting cabbage high cos we ate 7 servings of cabbages! ;DDD lovely. it's seriously yummy okay! HAHAHAH!

went to watch PIRATES with some of the odac-ers after that! heh! omg, it was a gd show after all ;D at least it's a movie watched! and im gg to watch movie with tam and sijia! SPIDEY SPIDEY! my longawaited spidey! ;D cant wait! hahahaha!

alrights,needa go now, still gotta be in sch for pw tml morninggg ;)

BOOGIIE! hehh! sch hols' finally here! and GUESS WHAT!!
OT'S GG TO BE HERE IN A MERE 7 DAYS TIME! ;D
omgg, the thot of OT is like simply excitinggg! wheehee~ and congrats to all who are 2-star kayakers now! XDD(bahh, i still feel myself bobbing up and down as if im on the sea) wheeeheeeee! happy happy and for the others, dont worry!!!! you guys are gg to get it soon ;D

25/05/07;
FULL DAY for all of vjc students;D haha!! it was like really expected, but i still enjoyed the fact that there's a FULL DAY! so there was supposed to be pt but due to some interruptions such as extra lessons and SPA, we didnt do much. some of us den went to parkway to get first aid supplies ! and RUSHED back like mad for match support at toa payoh for vj bball girls! haha! they're PRO!;D omgg, it was like really excitingg and the scores were really close. cheered till our throats were sore and voices hoarse ;) but it was realli delighting when VJ BBALL GIRLS WON!
anyw, vj soccer girls fought hard and well! ;D great job still!
and congrats to cel and tammy and beatrice ;D heh!!

26/06/07;
a FREAKING RUSHED day overall. heh! woke up freaking late and started chionging for 2-star kayaking course. oh god, and probably the fact that i started my day chionging, the rest of it carried on the trend;D hahah! expedition on the sea! and heh! felt rather drained! but we completed it! yay! and after that went to beach road to buy camping bag for OT! hahah! wheehee bought a 50litres bag at 50 bucks. pretty good bargain ;D yay!
after dinner at army mkt, freaking waited for bus 100 to take to kallang mrt, but it took soooo longgg! omg, was panicking like mad! bahhh! thank god i cabbed down to tanah merah to take mrt to airport! met shannon on the way and saw the rest at airport to send shifu off to overseas training! heh ;D gambate shifu! ;D aja aja hwaiting!
bahhh, we slacked awhile in the airport and took the last bus 34 out of airport. thank god we ran for thebus. hahah! felt so stranded on the bus and took cab home ;) heaps of cabbing today. heh!

27/07/07
KAYAKING! heh! it's fun and we love it. but we all agree excessive kayaking makes u feel lazy and worse, i still feel like im bobbing up and down! WAHAHHH, alrights! managed to get my cert! happy happy! WHEE!! finally managed to go home early to catch my tv show and finally, im home earlier den mommy and daddy. and they seemed really happy abt it ;) hahahahh!
right!


7 days to OT!

TWO STAR KAYAKING COURSE day one today went pretty smoothly at CHANGI BEACH! nods, capsizing drills with spray-skirts in the disgusting river and then had fun practising/revising strokes out in the sea ;D
cant wait for expedition on day 2!

after kayaking, went for dinner with jol, siewhwee, wanping and alan didi at fish & co! heh, the food is like totally 'to-die-for' haha! XD yay! felt so sinful. ;D but it doesnt matter. that's not the main pt, the main pt is, I DIDNT MANAGE TO WATCH MY SHOW ;( and im freaking sad. haha! stupid mommy, daddy and sister are suaning me, and shifu's laughing/gloating at my misfortune. BLEAGS

hahaah! but it's alright, i shall watch tml! heh!
alright, im currently addicted to the song, 'that's when i love you', intro-ed by siewhwee! OMG! it;s so nice;D heh! i swear it's gg to be on repeat mode when she sends me the song, so right now, i survive on listenin' to the song on her blog;D haha! and the lyrics are already posted ;) heh! nice sweet lyrics. heh!




(i wish you'd spare more thoughts for my feelings)

THAT'S WHEN I LOVE YOU

When you have to look away
When you don't have much to say
Thats when i love you, i love you, just that way

To hear you stumble when you speak
or see you walk with two left feet
Thats when i love you, i love you endlessly

And when your mad 'cause you lost a game
forget i'm waiting in the rain
baby i love you, i love you anyway

CHORUS
cause heres my promise made tonight
you can count on me for life
'cause thats when i love you
when nothing you do can change my mind
The more i learn, the more i love,
the more my heart can't get enough
Thats when i love you, when i love you no matter what

So when you turn to hide your eyes
'cause the movie it made you cry
thats when i love you, i love you a little more each time

and when you can't quite match your clothes
or when you laugh at your own jokes
thats when i love you, i love you more then you know

and when you forget that we had a date
or that look you give when you show up late
baby i love you, i love you anyway

CHORUS

oooh oooh thats when i love you
when nothing baby, nothing you do could change my mine
the more i learn, the more i love, the more my heart can't get enough
thats when i love you, when i love you, no matter what
ooooh oooh, no matter what

finally finished compiling first aid notes and posted on the web, so odac-ers, pls check blog k!XD
heh! omg, we're finally level-one rockclimbers! XD yay! which is totally a great achievement =D happy happy! wheehee, was so happy that i could actually climb to the top (before the overhang lah duhh;))! yay great job everyone! we sure did have fun tying many figure-of-eights =D

ayee, and yeah, i hope my leg WILL BE WELL enough by OT! haha! so that it wont ache when i climb or im seriously gg to DIE =/ like really DIE =/ hhaha! but i pray not! heh! alrights, fan finally realised the imptance of every single cent when she encountered the most unlucky thing on friday night.

just when i was thinking and feeling good abt stepping into yiochukang mrt station once again (haha, great memories and a sense of nostalgia for st nicks), my ezlink card ran outta cash. and it so happens that i was penniless (except for some few pathetic coins - tencents, twentycents) and jolene too was penniless. after much digging out and squeezing out of coins, i only managed to get 1.80, which was still 30cents short for buying of standard ticket. so i did the most freaking spastic thing in the world, heh, i had to ask a grp of ladies if they could give me 30cents. like wth. but thank god, they were kind enough to lend this poor soul who is unable to go home a hand. and can you imagine, when i got the money, i was exclaiming, 'i can finally go home!' which is really a sense of relief! XD

yay! so moral of the day, EVERY SINGLE CENT COUNTS!

ANYW, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY! MOMMY, I LOVE YOU! <3 stay healthy and always HAPPY!

and so i've been thinking alot just now...
where's the ever-so-optimistic fansia,
where's the ever-so-hyper, crazy fanatic fansia
and where's the ever-so-happy girl who keeps harping on the fact that if one day she ever gets into depression, it'd be the joke of the yr.

and so, i did the stupidest thing ever in my life. i crazily read the archives of my blog and there, i found sth that i always say whenever i feel i couldnt cope, whenever things get outta hand.

positive mindsets set everything going!

im gg to stand by this, because that was sth i so believed in. i believe we can do this, we can do it and we SHALL do it.

so heck abt what's gg to happen, heck abt what nasty thingys there are because THEY ARE NOT GG TO RUIN my wonderful life XD i've got great family, great friends, great people ard me. there's no reason why i want them to worry for me ;D

so, no more emo sessions from now on (no more talks in the gym alley/canteens/outside libraries XD), no more emo/depressed fansia, no more no more all that shyt. ;D SHOO SHOO SHOO! and if anything, im gg to settle them and put everything back into pace because i need, i want and i demand my life to be back to normal.

yay! expect = get! (adam khoo's workshop) haha! it's not too difficult to deceive myself after all. hahah! expect - get. so if i expect myself to be sad and emo over such stuff, i sure will be. so if i expect myself to still be tough in situations like this, oh sure i'd be! XDD so yay, i'd choose the latter. ;) so that's more like it. im feeling more myself now.

HAHA! oh yeah, fanny is a SMART girl! heh! she guessed sijia's (gu-niang's) new specs color! hahah! dark purple + red. whoohoo! did i mention i love royal purple. yay babe! u're becomeing more gu-niang. and dont try to deny it. good luck for syf tml okay! heh! u btr play ur best -stares- hahah and i look forward to watching movie with you since u said we hadnt watched a single film together even tho i've known u for 4 yrs + ! (are u serious?)

thanks to everyone who's been concerned over this crazily emo and mood swingy girl here for the past few days/ or a week at least. heh!! i really appreciated that, but let's put it on a good note : say bye to emo-istic girl! XD yeps, so such stuff probably makes ppl stronger and see things in a btr perspective =D

i realised, tough times like this only moulds a better, tougher and stronger person and makes you see who your real friends are ;) so yeah, i pray everyone's gg to pull out of unhappiness and emo-ness becos we're NOT born to belong there XD and may god bless everyone to seek their happiness and guide their way through all difficulties and unhappiness ;D




and to izzah dear : i know things can get pretty complicated and hard, and even outta hand. but im sure you'd be able to make things right becos u're the SMARTY EVIL BUDDY! but i was glad im able to say something decent to make you feel btr dear! XD u're welcome my dear and pls dont be sad. take things in ur stride alright! evil buddies for life! XDD -a nice bigg bigg bigg HUG!- no kisses for now, i promise XP but you know what's gg to happen if..... XD

so that's a pretty pretty long post. lovely days ahead i bet and definitely, i'd enjoy looking at nice white clouds even more! they give peace. if you dont believe, try it ;D

shoo those nasty thingys away; that's how you'd be HAPPY ;D
thanks lameooo girl, i'd rmb that. somehow this is gotta be the ONE and ONLY best advice you gave me in my entire life. haha, shyt abt that climb under the table when there's earthquake advice. haha! it's COMMON knowlege, my dear ;)

okay, i guess i failed in being happy again today, which was kinda retarded and stupid. bleags, sorry that i was being so retardly stupidly and mentally dumb today ppl. heh, unhappiness KILLS. SO im gg to stay FAR away from it XD

but thanks to shifu and ting for being ever so INNOVATIVE ;D

pioneering test tml, sucks. hahah! think i'd just flunk it. not for the practical part tho, but for the theory. eeks. pioneering chiefs, pls have mercy on us XDD

.

i care because you're my friend. im disappointed because friends do not doubt each other. it's really saddening to know that you dont even trust in me tho we've been friends for years. you should truly know what kinda person i am. i swear it was a pure misunderstanding and pls dont let such a dumb thing spoil our friendship because i care if i ever lose you as a friend ;)

i hate myself right now.
i hate it when im feeling low; when im feeling totally unmotivated.
EEKS, there's simply no time for me to procrastinate abt anything because there's a huge stack of stuff waiting for me to complete them

INdecisiveness SUCKS and i DEMAND MY HAPPINESS TO BE BACK!



on a happpier note: yay, we survived spring cleaning! hahaha! stories are cool people! cos we completed clearing the store a few hrs before deadline! yay! efficient! heh! the room ppl did a great job too! heh, we have a more dust-free room now! yay!XDDD 24th rocks!

gonna blog it fast before i'd go and have a nice slp and slp every single thing away.
bwahh, seriously, these few days seem to become worse and worse each time and no matter how much i try to pull myself away from what i didnt want, it just somewhat gravitated to me. i dont want and dont wish to think abt certain stuff, but they keep pestering my thoughts and invading my mind.

i need a serious break from everything (tho im damn sure it's super impossible:/) sorry ppl that i've not been myself these few days. i've been wondering where has all the joy and happiness gone to and there seems to be a serious lack of motivation for me to do anything. but nonetheless, thanks to those who are willing to lend an ear to what i always rant and ramble abt. truly, i was really glad that you guys were there for me when i was feeling down/crazy/dumb... really, i couldnt thank you guys enough, yeah, i really love you all! XD

okayyy, so im taking this weekend for me to return back to the jumpy, happy fanny. haha! XD according to cynthia, it rhymes! XD haha! happy fanny. hahah! yay, i wish!

wahaha! i was so happy and delighted hearing that jasmine tan was gg to date us for harry potter - order of pheonix! XD omg, it was such a happy moment; cleared my stupid thoughts abt stupid decisions to make away! XDD

alright, i need a gd slp now before i go to sch tml at EARLY 8am. for spring cleaning at the odac store. wonderful.