one more day to 2008. and damn, i dont want to end my year this way.
i swear i suck at handling such problems. i dont know how to talk at all bcos i know i'd lose control over my emotions becos that's the person i am. i can say im someone who really treasures friendships and every friend means something to me and have no means to make anyone upset or unhappy at all.

im really sorry if you feel hurt by our actions, but i swear we didnt mean it that way. im sorry for all the disappointment and i seriously dont wish to defend myself. becos maybe our 'didnt mean it that way' was something much more disappointing to you. i know it's hurtin on your part. but it's painful right in me too becos when i saw it, the words just stung. and i really am at a loss of what to do. i dont know if you'd see this and maybe you're wondering why im writing stuff here and not speaking to you instead. becos i dont really know it myself too. but i really hope our friendship's not gg to be strained or being reduced to nothing at all and not turn into strangers whom we dont even smile to. i cherish you as my friend and i really believe that the friendship we share aint nothing at all, the good times bad times aint just fake at all. i believe we shared a true friendship bcos i know it is. you're someone i can trust and the thought of losing you as a friend just sucks... i dont know how to say these to you... but i know i must and we need to sort things out. you may think these words are simply bullshit and just cliche stuff written. but truthfully, even the most cliche stuff can mean nothing but simply what i feel most truly. it really takes a huge deal of effort to post this up. but i think i want you to read it. or even better, i'll tell it to you...

just a little more time..

it's less than 48 hours to 2008. and yeps, completed ITC. gosh, it's finally over. not totally in a bad sense. but throughout the short two days, i realised many things that i didnt do enough, things that i did wrong. sorry for the sudden outburst during evaluation. didnt really plan it to be that way. just that... probably i was just emotionally weak these days. but yeps, itc was nonetheless pretty much mentally and physically challenging and yeps, definitely a wake-up call to many things.. dont really want to pen it down much. but just wanna thank arkar,alex,denise for being with me throughout the two whole days of hardship. it was really comforting with you all by my side. sorry if i was pretty unhigh/quiet/and just plain tired, i apologize. but it's really great with you all. thank you and many thank yous. you people are just really great ;D i wouldnt have survived without you all... thank you so much to all of the twentyforths, im really blessed with you all by my side in this camp. the encouragement, the help, all the good times and the bad just really make me feel heartwarming, just like a big family.

hurray! it's two days after xmas! ;D haha! xmas rocks with lingy, tong and jia! ;D haha! it was seriously fun and crazy. hahaha! went for shopping with mom, aunts and sis on xmas eve afternn and poof, was super tired! hahah! and den met up with the rest at clarke quay! haha! ;D heh and tong was late late late! hahah! grins. but we went to get shoes for jia after that cos apparently her slippers were giving way. hahah! oh and anyw, on our way to tcc ;D we bought glowing devil horns! WHEEHEE! it was damn cute lo!

HAHAH! den went to tcc for drinks initially. den food and finally coffee. the waiters are super amazed at our continuous orders. haha like omg. hahah! three rounds of food and drinks. hurray! haha! but the countdown was sooo... UNHIGH. haha! not like last yr's where there was an emcee out there. shoosh. hahah! but anyhw, we entertained ourselves with heaps of camwhoring. damn. (im receiving the zipped files from lingy and it takes super long to load! arrrhhh so u can imagine how many pics we took ;P) haah!

alright. i cant write more now. gotta slp! cos it's the LONG-DREADED but much awaited ITC! ;D hahaha! tml. oh yay and i need slp.. yippeee! GO PLUTO!!

ah yes, pics'd be up the next post i promise. hahah! (hmm... that's if i aint feeling lazy. ah poof)

annyeonghaseyo! whee, i finally revived my blog after well, a whole good 4 mths. haha, and yeah, it did feel as if fungi's growing in here. oh yeah, anyw, pardon the green(very OUTOFTHEPLACE) tagboard. im too slpy and tired to change it. gosh. lol! there was a sudden urge for me to post sth but yeah, i decided i shld change my layout so i'd have more interest in posting ;D and so, presenting to you, MR LEE DONGHAE ;D

yawns. okay, really sleepy right now. but yeah, a quick post before i stuff myself in my warm comfy quilt blanket ;D holidays' been good. went to india (sikkim yuksam) and had an onceinalifetime experience which i wont elaborate here cos it's freaking long to write everyth out. back and started my pretty-boring-but-i-like-the-slackness holidays. haha. shopping, class outings, odac outings, shopping, pool, movies with friends. done all that. but heh, seriously i wont mind more. so dont hesitate to date me XD (but things may start to get hectic soon ;( )

alrights, a paragraph of my post dedicated to my favo video-watching. haha, as usual, i spammed suju videos. gosh, i watched pretty much most of the videos everywhere. i may have missed out some. but it was a major spam that i get giddy from all that CUTEBOYS actions. ;p but i ran out of suju videos to watch. poof, if only i understand korean and dont have to depend on subs. rarr~ oh yeah, and i started listening to soh nyuh shi dae, by pure chance. and their song 'into the new world' really caught my ears. heh, i love it in fact. ha, but i seriously cant believe i saw jessica in the mv. poof, so they were the 'supergirls' they were talking abt. but heh, seriously, i dont exactly like her, but oh well, personal childish immature biasness. ha, she's actually qt okay. heh, but taeyeon's real cool and tiffany's darn prettyy~ so is yoona. haha. im beginning to like her no matter how much i actually disliked her in the 'u' mv. muahaha. the dance to this song is really nice ;D (itching to learn it) oh yeah, SUJU's PERFORMANCES are amazing. haha, shoosh! i love DONT DON. it's SUPERB. ha, hotness to the max. heh! and my sis got me the suju 2nd album! ;D HURRAY! with a poster too. heh, seriously, i cant stop ogling at it. XD hae's a hugaholic i realise (poof, he was hugging hyuk and teuk in sukira studio) superrr adorable. hehe! talk abt skinship man ;D exploration of human body gotta be one of the best show ever man. haha, 13 cute boys and a funny mc. SHOOSH, amazing show. u learn and u laugh till u roll on the floor. haha!

yeps, anyw, went out with lingy today for shopping spree! ;D ha bought two tops while lingy seriously bought damn alot. haha she probably got almost all the things she wanted ;D great job dear. and hurray, it's a fruitful and real fun trip! love~ haha! yay! but i want to shop somemore. haha shopping is with no doubt ADDICTIVE. haha! esp when mommy says she'd sponsor all my shopping. that calls for another gear-up shopping trip man! ;)

happy birthday arkar!(17th dec)
happy birthday shannon! (18th dec)

okay, i freaking need to sleep now. im gg for a mahjong session tml at tam's hse! WHEEHEE!~

one more day to 2008. and damn, i dont want to end my year this way.
i swear i suck at handling such problems. i dont know how to talk at all bcos i know i'd lose control over my emotions becos that's the person i am. i can say im someone who really treasures friendships and every friend means something to me and have no means to make anyone upset or unhappy at all.

im really sorry if you feel hurt by our actions, but i swear we didnt mean it that way. im sorry for all the disappointment and i seriously dont wish to defend myself. becos maybe our 'didnt mean it that way' was something much more disappointing to you. i know it's hurtin on your part. but it's painful right in me too becos when i saw it, the words just stung. and i really am at a loss of what to do. i dont know if you'd see this and maybe you're wondering why im writing stuff here and not speaking to you instead. becos i dont really know it myself too. but i really hope our friendship's not gg to be strained or being reduced to nothing at all and not turn into strangers whom we dont even smile to. i cherish you as my friend and i really believe that the friendship we share aint nothing at all, the good times bad times aint just fake at all. i believe we shared a true friendship bcos i know it is. you're someone i can trust and the thought of losing you as a friend just sucks... i dont know how to say these to you... but i know i must and we need to sort things out. you may think these words are simply bullshit and just cliche stuff written. but truthfully, even the most cliche stuff can mean nothing but simply what i feel most truly. it really takes a huge deal of effort to post this up. but i think i want you to read it. or even better, i'll tell it to you...

just a little more time..

it's less than 48 hours to 2008. and yeps, completed ITC. gosh, it's finally over. not totally in a bad sense. but throughout the short two days, i realised many things that i didnt do enough, things that i did wrong. sorry for the sudden outburst during evaluation. didnt really plan it to be that way. just that... probably i was just emotionally weak these days. but yeps, itc was nonetheless pretty much mentally and physically challenging and yeps, definitely a wake-up call to many things.. dont really want to pen it down much. but just wanna thank arkar,alex,denise for being with me throughout the two whole days of hardship. it was really comforting with you all by my side. sorry if i was pretty unhigh/quiet/and just plain tired, i apologize. but it's really great with you all. thank you and many thank yous. you people are just really great ;D i wouldnt have survived without you all... thank you so much to all of the twentyforths, im really blessed with you all by my side in this camp. the encouragement, the help, all the good times and the bad just really make me feel heartwarming, just like a big family.

hurray! it's two days after xmas! ;D haha! xmas rocks with lingy, tong and jia! ;D haha! it was seriously fun and crazy. hahaha! went for shopping with mom, aunts and sis on xmas eve afternn and poof, was super tired! hahah! and den met up with the rest at clarke quay! haha! ;D heh and tong was late late late! hahah! grins. but we went to get shoes for jia after that cos apparently her slippers were giving way. hahah! oh and anyw, on our way to tcc ;D we bought glowing devil horns! WHEEHEE! it was damn cute lo!

HAHAH! den went to tcc for drinks initially. den food and finally coffee. the waiters are super amazed at our continuous orders. haha like omg. hahah! three rounds of food and drinks. hurray! haha! but the countdown was sooo... UNHIGH. haha! not like last yr's where there was an emcee out there. shoosh. hahah! but anyhw, we entertained ourselves with heaps of camwhoring. damn. (im receiving the zipped files from lingy and it takes super long to load! arrrhhh so u can imagine how many pics we took ;P) haah!

alright. i cant write more now. gotta slp! cos it's the LONG-DREADED but much awaited ITC! ;D hahaha! tml. oh yay and i need slp.. yippeee! GO PLUTO!!

ah yes, pics'd be up the next post i promise. hahah! (hmm... that's if i aint feeling lazy. ah poof)

annyeonghaseyo! whee, i finally revived my blog after well, a whole good 4 mths. haha, and yeah, it did feel as if fungi's growing in here. oh yeah, anyw, pardon the green(very OUTOFTHEPLACE) tagboard. im too slpy and tired to change it. gosh. lol! there was a sudden urge for me to post sth but yeah, i decided i shld change my layout so i'd have more interest in posting ;D and so, presenting to you, MR LEE DONGHAE ;D

yawns. okay, really sleepy right now. but yeah, a quick post before i stuff myself in my warm comfy quilt blanket ;D holidays' been good. went to india (sikkim yuksam) and had an onceinalifetime experience which i wont elaborate here cos it's freaking long to write everyth out. back and started my pretty-boring-but-i-like-the-slackness holidays. haha. shopping, class outings, odac outings, shopping, pool, movies with friends. done all that. but heh, seriously i wont mind more. so dont hesitate to date me XD (but things may start to get hectic soon ;( )

alrights, a paragraph of my post dedicated to my favo video-watching. haha, as usual, i spammed suju videos. gosh, i watched pretty much most of the videos everywhere. i may have missed out some. but it was a major spam that i get giddy from all that CUTEBOYS actions. ;p but i ran out of suju videos to watch. poof, if only i understand korean and dont have to depend on subs. rarr~ oh yeah, and i started listening to soh nyuh shi dae, by pure chance. and their song 'into the new world' really caught my ears. heh, i love it in fact. ha, but i seriously cant believe i saw jessica in the mv. poof, so they were the 'supergirls' they were talking abt. but heh, seriously, i dont exactly like her, but oh well, personal childish immature biasness. ha, she's actually qt okay. heh, but taeyeon's real cool and tiffany's darn prettyy~ so is yoona. haha. im beginning to like her no matter how much i actually disliked her in the 'u' mv. muahaha. the dance to this song is really nice ;D (itching to learn it) oh yeah, SUJU's PERFORMANCES are amazing. haha, shoosh! i love DONT DON. it's SUPERB. ha, hotness to the max. heh! and my sis got me the suju 2nd album! ;D HURRAY! with a poster too. heh, seriously, i cant stop ogling at it. XD hae's a hugaholic i realise (poof, he was hugging hyuk and teuk in sukira studio) superrr adorable. hehe! talk abt skinship man ;D exploration of human body gotta be one of the best show ever man. haha, 13 cute boys and a funny mc. SHOOSH, amazing show. u learn and u laugh till u roll on the floor. haha!

yeps, anyw, went out with lingy today for shopping spree! ;D ha bought two tops while lingy seriously bought damn alot. haha she probably got almost all the things she wanted ;D great job dear. and hurray, it's a fruitful and real fun trip! love~ haha! yay! but i want to shop somemore. haha shopping is with no doubt ADDICTIVE. haha! esp when mommy says she'd sponsor all my shopping. that calls for another gear-up shopping trip man! ;)

happy birthday arkar!(17th dec)
happy birthday shannon! (18th dec)

okay, i freaking need to sleep now. im gg for a mahjong session tml at tam's hse! WHEEHEE!~