yippeedoo! ;D & im back in st nicks studying today! ;D happy happy but well,not so productive i can say. but yeah, first day of studying today. so good lil job fan ;D WAHAHAH! lol imma so easily contented ;D read normal & tried the tutorial. the initial part was shyt, & i kept getting stuck that i wanna rip the tutorial (hha, yes imma violent kiddo) heh! ;D but yeaps, i was taught to persevere all my life & yay! i survived till tutorial 4.2 ;D got really bored at it & wheehee, went to study physics quantum 2. ha alright, that's all i did today. DAMN pretty little, but heh! I PACKED MY NOTES!;D HAHAH! lols ;D alright that was ytd, but still! hahah! i deserve a good lil rest ;P HEH!

& yeps there was kai,lorena,xiang,cecilia,dino,jia,phy& me! ;D & gluttony me ate alot of st nicks yummy food ;D HEHE! happy happy! & drinks stall uncle rmb us! ;D HAHAH! which is kinda cool ;D HEHE! icedtea icedtea, orangebowl orangebowl ;D LOVE! & appletea, jellyjello (donnoe what it's called lah) ;D just tat the canteen's super nice to sit in & the tables are ultra clean ;D WHEEHEE (; can practically kiss it. LOL! okay not to that extent ;D HAHAHH! i was being retarded. heh! and really, dino's kukubong, suan me that im darker than her & STILL wanted to shut me up with your kuku iced milo ;P HAHAH and yes, talk so much during studying session ;D haha! the noisiest kiddo you can ever study with. but dear, you made it up by sending me songs ;D HEHEH! & you're FOREVER late. poor cecilia has to wait for you lo! TSKTSK. haha!

heheee ;D alright, ilovestnicks ;D
heheh! and poof, i dont wanna run3.3! ARHH!laziness on the toll :P hahahahs

short quick post before i go to slp. yawns a million;D hahah! oh yes ah, i finally packed finish my notes.after well, 6 hours ;D HAHAH! lol with intermediate breaks & procrastination ;D hahah! LOL! just wanted to leave all the stuff lying on the floor & slp in a 'paper factory' (quoted from kai!) hahah! but heh, i think i'd crumple them ;D hahah! so i decided not to. hahah! but i really dont mind just slping on them. yawns. hahah! stupid mountain of notes. now there's like files and files of them. & i dont know which or where to start studying from! hahah! and yes gg back to st nicks to study tml ;D AH SO EXCITING! ;D HEHE! cant wait yo! ;D and yes, i btr get some slp soon.

&well, lameo says i shld invest in staple bullets cos my notes are fallin out. haha well, fan's lazy & forgetful to get any yo! ;D HAHAH! aye yes, so everything's been settled & nods, i've sorta replenished my slp tho it still gets kinda mentally draining. i donnoe. aftermath. hahah! ;D but yeps, jus gotta slp more ;D SLP is very IMPORTANT FOR HEADACHES, coughs ahem yes at some defiant PTP;D hahahh! ;D nods was really really happy back in sch today ;D wheeheee, finally stepped back into the odac room & seeing all that nice familiar faces after donnoe how long! HEHE! ;D okay. not very long. but still, im used to see my dears everyday! ;D haha! captain's ball was well, okay, qt easily tired out today & den went for lunch with jol,kai &hammie at pp. & after that went to bodyshop to get showergels which were on offer ;D haha! yippee doo! ;D no more passionfruit tho ;D haha! strawberry's good too! ;D got ivie the papaya one;D HEHE!

alright yo, needa head to slp like this instant. nightsy loves, keep safe & take care ;D oh yeah, take care tong! sorry i didnt go send you off at the airport. take heaps of care in japan & most importantly, have fun ;D enjoy yourself dear! ;DD

and yeps, on a happier note, it's ZHANLIANG DOGGY'S BIRTHDAY TODAY! ;D happy birthday boy! sorry i cant be there but i really really hope you love the presents heaps ;D aww, ur lovely yellow kennel with red roofs ;D hehe! LOVELY! hope you hav a pleasant lovely day! ;DD GRINS!

and yeps, i cant say enough thankyous to all you loves, for the comforting hugs, talks, msgs, notes, and cyclone bakers' cupcake ;D thankyou dears for alw being just there;D iloveyouall. pls keep safe and happy you lovelies ;D

been a freaking crazy week i swear, but things' been handled well. sometimes when things fail you, you just gotta deal with it ;) there's no such things as losing faith, losing hope just as long as you hung on tight to them.. well, dont lose hope or faith in every other thing if just something fails you. this, is what i believe in ;D

pls let grandpa find peace in heaven..
i pray.

and it's been pretty long since i felt this way ;D the pleasant way of craziness ;D not to the extent of really crazy! but yes, im high and well,governed by my instincts to be high and driven by adrenaline to be high! HAHA! JUMPS ARD. i just cant seem to get the excitement outta me ;D HEHE! i feel like just jumping ard madly ;D HEHE! aye! LOVELY ;D and the thing is it drowns all tiredness in you and heh! laughters are good ;D hahahah! they make you happy ;D HEHEHE! hello you all lovelys, care for some highness yo? ;D HAHAHAH! alright!

thot i wouldnt have survived at all today! alright fine, i didnt exactly survived! but i TRIED staying awake but heh, succumbed to temptation to fall deep deep aslp! HAHAH! LIKE ZOMG! i slept throughout all lectures (except for math! cos i decided that sincei started listening to complex, i might as well NOT GIVE UP on my first chapter that i actually listen to! and yay! i understand complex numbers ;D imma not that stupid after all ;D HAHAH! ) but no matter how hard i TRIED to keep awake for chem today, i really really cant ;/ and boom, i died for the like the first first qns of the mcq test/practice! WAHAHA ;D man seriously, they speak foreign languages to me ;D chem speaks foreign languages to me no matter how much they wish to be acquainted with me! :D HAHAHAH! alright still died for the lessons! but nods, i came to realise that the mind's really really powerful. i could have just keep thinking that i am VERY tired which i really was and just lead a very sian/tired/want-to-die kinda day ;D but yeps, the mind's amazing and it carried me thru all tht highness till now! ;D HURRAY! and if you think good of everyth, everyth's gg to be fine ;D a positive mind sets everyth gg yo! ;D HEHEH!

and gosh, the underground pipes down my house's like crazy. VERY crazy, it's like... the water is sprouting like some goodness fountain. and apparently the big pipes below burst. ha, and den now it looks like im living in a flooded town. lol. yeps. a funny sight and there;s like some urgent construction gg on ;D

and just a random thot since my term 2's endin;D just sth reflective. aye, i dont know, i feel excited that holiday's gg to start! but poof that only meant i've to study!POOF! ;( which is not very good. aye! and yeps, many many stuff happened this term. gotta say, there's just heaps of ppl to thank (the list's too long to be generated really, but yeps, to anyone who's shared with fan even a teeny bit of happyness, thanks ya loves heaps;D i really appreciate everything lil thing ;D;D there're many a times where stuff just pile up and one cant cope and times where some major stuffs happen & we cant react rationally and let emotions get the better of us. i swear i aint anyone who handle bad stuff really well, but the least is, fan's learning ;) learning to is better than not trying at all ;D to fall and to stand back up again fast ;D and to face up to whatever's that ever falling bravely ;D and yes, of cos, one cant do w/o the support of family and friends ;D thankyou heaps to all the dears who's been standing by, and jsut lending support alw ;D and definitely of cos there's heaps of events to rmb and etched deep in the mind, lessons learnt, happiness and joy shared ;D been grateful and really appreciative of the wonderful companions alw, right from the beginning. i dont know, i've been really much a protected kiddo, at least i dont exactly rmb myself facing with extreme setbacks and im alw meeting and getting to know just the right ppl ;D right persons ;D extremely glad for sec 4dee babes who's alw there no matter how busy the schedule was, 07s44 class who's alw so whacky and nv really fails to light up one's day, and not forgetting, odac lovelies who's at everywhere and anywhere just akin to family ;D nv failing to make everything else btr ;D and yes, my online mates too ;D man, i cant believe i only get to talk to some of you online and probably only see you once in my lifetime, but yeps, thanks for sharing so much! cant believe friendships can be forged even in the virtual world ;D
and to you, my family and friends, pls just keep safe alw, and nods, may you have that joy and happyness in your life ;D

ALRIGHT! and yeps, a thot just kinda popped in my head and so i was wishing at one am in the morning (well, i missed 1111 today, and hopefully 0100 works the same). pls bless those in pain & those in need ;) yeps, may the pain for those victims of all the disasters happening now be lessened much. aye!

and yeps, for arkar boy! pls get well real soon boy ;D and quit straining your hands pls ! :D HAHAH! take good care yea! or you deserve whacks! ;D GRINS! ;D

aww shucks, mom and dad have to rush out now cos hospital just called. freak, and grandpa's supposedly in danger/critical condition. aye ;( pls, let him be fine. i know he'll.

and yes, im keeping my fingers crossed and maintaining a really really positive mindset. dont fail me pls ;D

today wasnt exactly what i wanted it to be ;/ woke up feeling happy and darn, stupid gastric killed on the bus coupled with an everlasting cramp that nv really left the entire day till now. but yeah, was still happy throughout kinda ;D heh! my highness didnt wear off much from the long weekend tho ;D yeps! and sucky thing today was arkar boy fell and fractured both wrists. ah boy, take care alot alot alot dear! ;D and nods, please get well real soon ;D i know you will ;D and man, arkar boy was sooo tough and strong today ;D aye! so pls come back to us soon, im sure can one! a million grins! and YES, can come back and help me finish all my foood!!! ;D HEHEH! rest well and take care alot boyy! ;D

and so yeps, thank you NTN(nasty-turned-nice) ;D hehe! ah, i really miss talking to you. like just rambling alot. and it's been so long yea! but nods! i received the letter from you, and as expected, the handwriting was freaking horrifying. bleags!:P HAHAH! just kidding my dear ;D haha! but thanks heaps alot alot & you nasty, nastily forgot abt me! ;P

aye, and so today wasnt the best day i thought out to be. things happen outta our control. many many things.. and lameo says that imma too emotional to handle my own feelings. alright yes girl, i admit that i wasnt in complete control of my own emotions and things just turn otherwise what i intended them to be ;/ poof, but yeps, a positive mind sets everyth gg ;D and i shall attribute these to be yet another bad/weirdo day to get my mind over ;D tml's gonna be so much a btr day! ;D

aye! alright! a new post today! and poof, it's nth like that of the past few day's i swear! nods, i assume this's gonna be a really short post since it's kinda an unearthly hr now and imma gg out tml! ;D hehe! so yeps, cant overslp! or i may be slaughtered! HAHA! alright! fan's a happy kiddo today, happily transferring songs to the ipod, converting videos ;D yes yes videos ;D and got soooo happy watching them agn ;D ah, i get to see my cute hae in action agn! LOL! he's retardedly/charmingly/adorably cute! ;D HEHE!! ayee really happy.

and then, i started watching miracle mv agn, and it made me really happy. i dont know, this song's gotten a really special effect on me ;D heh! it makes me contented ;D or rather i say, it reminds me to be contented ;D sometimes we just get overwhelmed by small big sadness that seemingly make us seem to overlook the tiny and large happiness that's even occuring at the same time ;D and yeps. we alw want to seek for the better, to want more happiness to want more joy to want alot alot more and yeps, subconsciously, we're all fragile beings, inevitably affected by bad stuff that throws your entire mind and toys with your emotions and feelings. and i guess it's only right for us to feel that cos we're all humans you see. but yeps, what makes it saddening is that we fail to place in great importance what we alr have, and we fail to see beyond the sadness, the bad stuff that the element of happiness will still be present anyhow. it's just that it's overshadowed by sadness ;D

'life couldnt get better' you tell yourself that, you're a contented person just the way you are and even if you fall, you stand up smiling agn cos no matter what small big sadness they are, they aint gonna get you down when you believe in 'miracle's ;D

MUAHAHA, I LOVE MY LOVELY HAPPY WHACKY SUJU! :D THEY'RE MY INSPIRATION! ;D

aye! despite slping really really really early and i think sufficient for the past few days, i admit and swear i wasnt in the best of mood these days. and im really really really sorry to whoever i've ever lost my temper to or probably wasnt in the best state to talk to in fact. cos the mood fluctuates worse than the ups and downs in the rollercoaster. aye, and i wish very much to attribute it to i dunno.. pms probably. ah, nods, but just really really pretty much in a daze and just feeling nua3 these days and yeps, i dunno i could be dead one moment and then, overexcited for the next. haha. is that a sign of gg crazy.hahah;D i wonder! ;D too much slp maybe! hahah.

aye, but anyhow, today was volleyball finals but yeps,it was really really exciting man ;D haha i was like. ah, my heart's abt to thump out every single moment. poof;D damn freaky. but yeps, even tho they didnt win it, i think it was a great match still. had a great time cheering and watching it ;D and great job to the vjvballers!! ;D ahwhee! and ytd was soccer girls finals! WHEE and vj won!;D like hurray, it was a close fight really and yeps we won 6-5 in penalty ;D ah, it was so heartstopping, so exhilarating. and everything and everything! ;D but really, both teams were good;D managed to see lingy and vivian at the stadium ytd ;D happyhappy ;D had dinner after that and went shopping abit here and there. animal,mph and just roaming abt. haha lol.

today's plain weird, i wasnt even focusing. like i get andrew asking me abt some stuff and den i didnt catch anyth at all cos i was in a daze, unfocused somewhere. and aye, it's jsut weird up down left right. like sth bad's gonna happen. poof ;( but i tried to keep bad thoughts away, tried to make myself happy and stuff. imma tough and strong yo! and i can overcome every thing! ;D nods! and my sincere prayers and wishes to shifu who's having her acl op tml ;D jiayou you daedanhada shifu!;D will bully you after ur op! :P dont think u'd be able to escape from us ya! ;D
and nods! grandpa just got admitted to the hospital probably an hr or two ago. aye, prayers for him too.
i know they'd be fine. (:

and yeps, hope this unhappy/mood fluctuating syndrome stops ;D nods. i wanna be happy happy happy ;D!

and whee, im reading a book finally ;D

heyyyooo loves! ;D blogging agn! ;D and yes that's cos i reached home early today ;D oh man! and i realised that i havent been paying much attention to the new updates of my boys ;D haha MY. LOL! okay, i dont claim ownership of them of cos ;D hehe! damn, sis was updating me and gosh, no more my lovely perfect 13 boys ;( im so saddd cos they're so splitted up. seriously, no matter what i still like it when they were just ONE group. i mean it's good they venture out to more international markets and such. but i want suju as ONE ;( it got me really upset seeing that they;re all over the world in small groups. poof, i miss them together in action sooo much! ;( i want my lovely 13 boys back together pls! aye, and i miss seeing so much of my lovely cute spastic hae in action! ;D hehe! i love watching his old videos. he's such an ADORABLE DORK! ;D and man, i still love hearing him speak in KOREAN! poof, even tho he's starting to speak chinese now. aye but of cos, im happy seeing them receiving more recognition even in the chinese market now, happy for hae esp. but aye, it just sucks seeing the 13 of them not together being the extremely whacky bunch that never ever fails to put a smile on my face anymore. ;( POOF. but im happy as long as they are ;D

grins. and that's abit of complaining done ;D hehe!but you know, those just aint enough to express the sadness within me ;( poof, seriously, ppl just think we're plain foolish. who gets upset over such stuff seriously. hahah, but i do! and many others do! i know lingy's gg to agree with me ;D hehe, well, i miss getting my motivation from them, i rmb how everyday used to be soooo happy cos ah, i watched just a simple clip of them, how i can just smile every single day in bliss and happiness! ;D ahhh haengbok ;D i miss those days really! aye, and i rmb their album of songs tide me thru olvls ;D but aye, it was THOSE DAYS again. i guess it's this emptiness that i feel within me. how incomplete it felt esp after being so reliant on them for one full year ;D i nv regretted tho! hmmhmm, pls let the 13 stay togetherr ;D

nodsnods! and heh happy happy! tml's soccer girls finals! okay so it's VJ against SAJC again! arhhh, seriously i hope vj's gonna win! hehe! go VJSG! ;D hehe! but still, im sorta anticipating a good match tml! ;D hehe! good luck to cel and tam who's playing for SA too! ;D OMG! ;D hehe! it's so exciting being able to watch my 4dee dears playing ;D hehe! hurray! ;D JIAYOU to all of them! xiang, lorena, cel and tam! ;D heh! yipeeedoo! and vball girls got into finals! hehe! and our class is gg down to support sheila and the team ;D go girls ;D hehe! no stress girl! ;D GAMBATE!

a pretty weird/funny post ;D hahah! GOSH!! IMMA HAPPY! 19mths&2days! i love my boy! ;D

happy lovely mommy's days to all mommys and of course to my dearest mommy ;D i love you mommmy even tho i know i have been a really bad kid. so pls tolerate with my horrible temper ;D right and so, im here blogging after one whole week of hiatus status ;D ahaha, been a pretty busy week, trying to cram my head with chem test and stuff. poof but it's over. i admit it got me pretty stressed up cos eh, i hate doing stuff im being forced into and so, i was forced to study for chem test becos i HAD to. i really hated the feeling ;D hahah! but right, i was happy i did my electromagnetic induction and vectors willingly ;D and poof, i did them! yay! imma continuing with vectors after this. yippeee doo! ;D and i was really kinda surprised i understood vectors. ZOMG ;D im not stupid! hahah!

alright. and i was at liang court with lingy ytd! haha! cel and tam bluffed that they were gg too! haha! but eh, they didnt lah. cos they were too tired after soccer training. haha lol ;D OH RIGHT YEAH! ;D liang court proves to be the best best best place for studyinggg ;D like really. so much memories ;D and zomg, it's simply a feeling of peace and bliss sitting at the same spot i was 3 yrs ago still! ;D haha! oh right, im returning to the same place ;D no more bishan and amk libraries ;/ boycottt! hahah ;D and yes, liang court has starbucks agn! ;D wheehee and many jap food restaurants and whoo kino ;D haha, lingy and i love this place ;D alotalot. and she was prety productive ytd too! and me too! i read and understood the lecture notes for vectors 2 - 6 in a mere 4 hrs with a short 15 min nap in between ;D WHEEHEE! my first time reading those notes i swear ;d oh right, tutorial time laterr ;D and zomg, something exciting to share, the toilet in liangcourt is RED! ;D ahaha! red is the new cool yo! ;D haha! WE couldnt resist the temptation to camwhore in the lovely pretty red ;D



and then, our dinner atliangcourt ;D jap food! hahah! ex ;D but it's worth it! ;D


as usual, lingy was telling me abt rice price inflation ;D hahaha :D YES I UNDERSTAND, but i stil dont finish the rice ;D HAHAHAH!
alright, time for tutorial ;D seeya loves!

helloiello ;D my new way of saying hello ;) wheehee! fan's totally a happy little girl even tho the weather is abit warm and stuffy that totally killed me this beautiful afternn. i think i truly miss my dears alot ;D i feel so happy seeing them, talking to them, mugging with them, rubbishing with them. and yes, today's a good day out with lingy and jia! ;D AHAHA! were at amk lib for the morningg and then got displaced to the mosburger ;/ haha! the weather was unusually (usually) very very very hot. and stuffy that i was kinda feeling stuffed up at my chest and had difficulty breathing LOL! and a very groggy head coupled with some headache. haha! okay that was a tad too exaggerated ;D haha! but there was abit of everything. haha! the weather is BAD ;( lol! but the time passes unusually slow today. i kinda like it, but then again i dont ;D haha but it's fine. fan's a good girl, finished chem kinetics, hydroxy and carbonyl cpds! reading and understanding the TUTORIALS ;D POOFF! *jumps ard! so, lovely dears! do i deserve some ultra bigggie reward? grins a million! HEHE! okay. that was considered pretty productive for a slackkerrr like me. allright, im starting to pick up!

ayee and if any of you reading this blog AINT picking up, den you deserve a smack up down left right. because if this slackkkerr here is, then why ARENT you! ;D right!

and of cos, fan never fails to have fun ;D haha! rewarded myself with a lil shopping trip with the rest! ;D haha! first to artbox in amk hub! my second time this week ;D this time i bought stuff for myself ;D ahhh pretty pretty stuff that made my day really happy ;) this panda brown book with brown empty pages (lol, i bought with no idea what to do with it ;D), a pocket flipbook (i dont know what to do with this too!) ayee, but it was too adorableeee! WAHAHA! a scheduler (ayeee! maybe it'd make me more aware of dates and be a tad more organised ;D hah! it's so cute, imma gg to use it! and yes a nice notebook that says "LOVE & PEACE" but i really like the verse on it

success is not the key to happiness. Happiness is the key to success. If you
love what you are doing, you will be successful.

haha, guesswhat imma gg to do with the notebook! to write my beatiful organic chem notes in it! ;D ARHAHA! ;D den whee! i'd maybe develop a love for organic chem ! ;D ahhh, great tactic huh! ;D immaaa genius! HAHA!

alright. then i went for dinner with lingy, jia had to go home ;( poof. but yeah, lingy and i had dinner then, we decided to go SHOPPPING ;D haha! went into a few shops. tried on some tops, some bottoms ;D but didnt buy any but lingy bought two tops ;D haha! and i wanted to buy canvas shoes! stopped at converse and GOSH! this beautiful red checkered shoes caught my eyes and i fell in love with it. love at first sight i call that ;D mann, and what's the worst thing. ha, the shoes were way too huge. haha they didnt have my size and i thought my feet were big ;/ FREAK! man, i still want that that that that pair of shoes! ;( haha! then, my horrible experience with shoes continued with another pair i saw in the shop ;D haha! this time a green pair with a army green flap ;D heh, still not as nice as the first. but ayee, i dont mind! AND GUESS WHAT, they were too big AGAIN ;/ AHH! i was alr ultra upset! drama drama. i found this pair of shoes that's beige. pretty nice but lingy was like. aye, you're not gg to wear it with vj sch u are you. haha! you'd look monochrome ;D HAHAHA! that got me laughing. haha! yes, it's like the same color. haha! MATCHING shoes! so i decided not to get it. went ard shopping somemore! and yes! i think it was the horrible shoe shopping experience that caused me to buy this other pair of bum equipment shoes on impulse. freak, they were too big;/ haha! but like alw, i buy things in impulse and esp this time, it's catalysed by the fact that i didnt get my other two pairs of shoes that im sick of shoes without my size! and on impulse, i just bought the pretty loose bum equipment shoes. and ended up still very happy abt it ;D HAHAH! okay, i think im spastic ;D LOLOL! but i need a new pair of shoes still. still gonna hunt for my pretty red checkered shoes and yes, with my size pls ;D HAHA!

and that marks my pretty happy day out. studying and wheehee, shopping. ah, im glad i aint feeling the horrible feeling like ytd anymore ;D aint gonna think abt bad stuff bcos they kill you and your mood, making you a grumpy 'pooo'ie (shitty) person! ;D so yeah, hop out and pull yourself outta any sad, unhappy, angry, stressful, depressing thoughts/stuff before you sink in further. and no worries, there'd alw be someone (eh.. hmm, like me!:P) who's MORE than willing to pull you outta them. and that is IF YOU LET THEM ;D

i just wish YOU (you my dears/loves and anyone who happens to read this)'d be happy ;D

man, i like the song 'letitburn' by usher ;D
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HAPPY 18th birthday CELESTIA TAN! ;D hope you had a fantastic bday ;D and yes, hope you like the soccer boots we got for you ;D and yeah! LUCKS for all your matches and seasons! ;D you go girl ;D stay happy and cheery ;DD

second post for the night. dont think i'd be able to slp. but i have to ;( and so imma gg to force myself to fall aslp soon ;D and im ultimately super sad abt the fact that i lost my earpiece for sonyericsson phones ;/ POOF, it just miraculously went missing like that. AH, and my sis's one is missing too. i suspect there's some stupid earpiece addicts out there stealing earpieces ;/ HAHA! alright. very spastic. but uhhh, how am i gg to study with no music ;/

grrr.. wishes dont work! then again, if they come true so easily, there's no joy in making a wish and having it come true ;D

alright, nightsy dears ;D imma gg to try slpinggg ;D

poofy! and fan's supposed to be feeling exceptionally happy after a 8hr long slp ;D from 1 plus in the afternn to 9plus in the night. but apparently not quite ;( and i hate this feeling inside of me. i dont know what it's called but the fact that it's devouring my happiness aint good at all ;( freak. and i know partly why i feel like that ;( poof, okay, and i stopped for a good whole 30 mins after writing the first part ;/ EEKS. okayyy lollipopping time ;D some happiness induced hopefully ;D

alright and yes ytd was a good day ;D goody day! cos i was really really really happy that i did btr than i expected for my napfa;D lol i was so scared initially that i kept jumping ard nervously. i guess it was due to a total bad exp in sec 4 ;/ lol ;D but it went smooth and well this time ;DD i guess less expectations and you'd reap more happiness and satisfaction in the end ;D and probably that's how i felt. haha! extremely high ;D and yah! thanks yufang and yilun! ;D they treated us icecream ;D WHEEHEE! after that, lessons lessons and lessons. survived and tada, went to the room aft that to slack ard ;D haha! slept. and poof, pt was... unsatisfying i must say. it's like the weather was too hot and the mood wasnt there to do anyth at all ;D so yah. it ended pretty fast ;/ went back to the room, attempted to play cards, but decided to slp more ;D bathed and yay, time for dance concert ;D

yeps, the dances were damn nice and got all of us hyped up but freak, the pt was freaking cold and we were like very much freezing ;D thank goodness the good dances kept me in there ;D HEEH! and wheehee, i swear the lil kids guest performers were . WOAH, SO ADORABLE ;D haha! i wanna bring them home! :DD LOL! but overall, the ticket for the dance concert was really worth it ;D hehe! and okay ya, after that, our big plan for shihan's bday starts! ;D HEHE! conned her into believing that very few ppl are gg her hse for stayover den the rest bluffed her they're gg home but in fact are on their way to her hse! ;D hehe! and so that was the surprise for her bday and they lit candles on the grasspatch in the words 'ODAC <3 LS' ;D and we sang bday song for her with a pretty green cake ;D wheehee ;D and her rxn was instant. just cried almost instantly ;D heh! yay! our surprise was a beautiful success tho we well.. fabricated so many lies in between. but it was all for a good cause ;D yay! one conclusion: she was touched ;D and seeing that, we know all our efforts paid off ;D HAHA!

went back to her home andyeps, party started. eating and some even cooked instant noodles and stuff ;D lol. and yeah, decided to play mahjong after tht. lol,happy happy cos lady luck was kinda with me ;D grins. won like 2 or 3 rounds ;D whee. had a 15 min short nap before that and yay as usual, it kept me pretty high and awake for the night ;D and yeps, when all of them were like kinda slping in the end, i was like sitting awake, playing spastic lumines blocks and listening to songs ;D and yeah, just thinking randomly. haha! and alex soh keeps murmuring i dunnowhat in his slp. HAHAH! dozed off at some parts but wake up in the midst. but it was freezing lah. like totally. even with the jacket, it was super cold. decided to head out with hammie to the living room cos both of us couldnt take the cold and heh, had to push alex's legs who were blocking the door away ;D had a pretty decent hr of slp on the dining room table ;D woke up somewhat and just couldnt really get to slp after that ;D stoned, watched ppl slp, listened to music till more ppl wake up. beauty and beast left pretty early and then, all of us waited till all were up and headed to have breakfast ;) gosh, and that was when my tiredness and slpiness were seeping in. was kinda very tired.but heh, the walk was funn with 'ha gao' and 'siewmai' talks and just random rubbish. haha! darryl left during breakfast.after breakfast. headed to shihan's hse, gave her her presents before jia and rach left. and the rest of the girls all gathered in the room, talking. lol, online shopping, friendster hopping and just talking randomly ;D haha! pretty fun ;D haha! while the guys were out there playing xbox ;D went home at 12 plus. and yeps. bathed and didnt even wait till my hair was dry. i just SLEPT all the way till 9 plus, skipping lunch and dinner. and now im feeling hungry. gosh;/

alright. studying tml with some dears in amk lib. hopefully productive. swear i need to get some studying done and quit being sooo slack. not that i can help it but.. gosh, i need some motivation ;( where are you. where where where.
haha that sounds delirious. no worries, not anywhere near being driven to nuts yet.

at the end of the day, it meant nothing.

HIGH - LIGHTHOUSE
When you're close to tears remember
Some day it'll all be over
One day we're gonna get so high
And though it's darker than December
What's ahead is a different colour
One day we're gonna get so high

And at
The end of the day
remember the days
When we were close to the edge
And we'll wonder how we made it through the night
The end of the day
remember the way
We stayed so close till the end
We'll remember it was me and you

'Cause we are gonna be forever you and me
You will always keep me flying high in the sky of love

Don't you think it's time you started
Doing what we always wanted
One day we're gonna get so high
'Cause even the impossible
is easy when we got each other
One day 'we're gonna get so high

And at
The end of the day
remember the days
when we were close to the edge
And we'll wonder how we made it through the night
The end of the day
remember the way
We stayed so close to till the end
We'll remember it was me and you.

'Cause we are gonna be forever you and me
You will always keep me flying high in the sky of love
'Cause we are gonna be forever you and me
You will always keep me flying high in the sky of love

High, high, high, high, high, high, high, high

And at
The end of the day
remember the days
when we were close to the edge
And we'll wonder how we made it through the night
The end of the day
remember the way
We stayed so close to till the end
We'll remember it was me and you.

'Cause we are gonna be forever you and me
You will always keep me flying high in the sky of love (x3)


random: skateboarding is kinda fun! hehe! had my first try on the skateboard ytd in the odac room ;D POOF! it was freaking fun! ;D but im damn lousy at it ;D hahah! but still, first try! HAHAH! YAY! I WANNA BE A SKATER GIRLL!!! LOL! ;DD

ahh! ;D it's really amazing how things sometimes appear in your life agn. haha! take for example, i simply forgot abt the existence of this kinda meaningful song that seemed ever so familiar 'high by lighthouse family'. gosh. a pretty old song, but that was until i heard it again ytd. freak, and i coluldnt rmb the song title at all! and so i racked my brains for it and tada! i found it again! HEHE! it's like subconsciously you have it in your mind ;D and this makes me so happy! ;D SO SO SO HAPPY! ;D to be frank, i really dont know what sorta memories this song brings. i really cant exactly remember. not the slightest hint. but darn, when i heard the song again, it brought a familiar feeling back in me and made me smile so much! jumps ard! NICE SONG ;D but damn, i cant rmb under what circumstances i heard this song. but i think it has kinda some impact in me otherwise it wouldnt have brought that subconscious smile and familiar feeling! ;D man, im getting old that my brains' failing me ;/

ahhh haha! anyw, happy burfday syaz dear today! ;D hehe! and happy birthday ivie love ytd! ;D OMG, i swear i felt all was so worth it when i saw that smile on your face and the fact that you were really touched and stuff ;D all the late nights, going from here to there to everywhere getting the presents done and stuff were absolutely worth it ;D and it's all worth it for that brilliant smile and a special moment on your bday dear! :D HEHE! and that made us really really really happy too! ;D and so, it was ivie's special 18th bday ytd! ;D

thank you dear for alw being there and such ever since from i first knew you in cyclone ;D it's amazing how all of us just got brought together in a small happy group called cyclone ;D zl dog, shh dear, jo daddy, ivie dear and fan ;D hehe, and then, it's amazing how we got thru hard times and there, ended up with being part of the 26 in the lovely amazing 24th batch ;D and yes, throughout, we had so much spastic times and i'd always rmb your spasticness and childishness ;D hehe! we all agreed you're the most spastic girl in cyclone :P! hehe! and not to forget, tough times keep us stronger and more bonded together ;D OLC, OTs, ITC! everything and everything ;D alw there with your dimpled smile, brightening up our life with your spastic comments! and it has been really fun and enjoyable working with you. admin comm for reunion, DARE comm dept and yes, my first race partner ;D thank you for being part of everything that'd alw leave a smile on my face ;D AH, IVIE LOVE! i love you! ;D and i cant say enough ;D

HEHE! peektures will be up soon enough. bt cos my cam batt died, i cant load it in my com yet ;D hehe! aye yes, today's labour day and i was out! it was kinda fun. okay, fine. fun cos i was awake and had enough slp. haha! but seriously, my brain got drained for qt abit towards the end ;D but heh, B&Js GOT ME HAPPY AGN! omg, finally satisfied my craving for B&Js. felt i really really needed it at that point of time. i dont like times when i feel unhyped and esp coupled with the fact that i shldnt be feeling that sian or tired bcos of my almost 10 hr long slp! ;D and boo lameo, I GOT MY B&Js IN THE END! smiles and sticks out tongue a million! :D but yeah, no freecone day thrill tho. but iloveit still ;D ayeee! today's a good day stepping in town seeing so many oh-so-cute things! I BOUGHT two ADORABLE TTM files and heh, got myself very contented ;D haha! okay, im a very easily happy person ;D HAHAH! home for dinner and then watched abit of tv and here i am now! ;D

AH HAPPY DAY for almost every moment! ;D yummy yoghurt and ben&jerry's are ultra satisfying ;D and out with the lovely dears beat stoning and den trying very hard to study and yet nth gets into my head totally!! :D aye! and there was a totally hilarious episode today ;D which i shan't elaborate! haha! the whole thing was hilarious! ;D

AH YEA! and that so marks my pretty lovely beautiful day ;D

yippeedoo! ;D & im back in st nicks studying today! ;D happy happy but well,not so productive i can say. but yeah, first day of studying today. so good lil job fan ;D WAHAHAH! lol imma so easily contented ;D read normal & tried the tutorial. the initial part was shyt, & i kept getting stuck that i wanna rip the tutorial (hha, yes imma violent kiddo) heh! ;D but yeaps, i was taught to persevere all my life & yay! i survived till tutorial 4.2 ;D got really bored at it & wheehee, went to study physics quantum 2. ha alright, that's all i did today. DAMN pretty little, but heh! I PACKED MY NOTES!;D HAHAH! lols ;D alright that was ytd, but still! hahah! i deserve a good lil rest ;P HEH!

& yeps there was kai,lorena,xiang,cecilia,dino,jia,phy& me! ;D & gluttony me ate alot of st nicks yummy food ;D HEHE! happy happy! & drinks stall uncle rmb us! ;D HAHAH! which is kinda cool ;D HEHE! icedtea icedtea, orangebowl orangebowl ;D LOVE! & appletea, jellyjello (donnoe what it's called lah) ;D just tat the canteen's super nice to sit in & the tables are ultra clean ;D WHEEHEE (; can practically kiss it. LOL! okay not to that extent ;D HAHAHH! i was being retarded. heh! and really, dino's kukubong, suan me that im darker than her & STILL wanted to shut me up with your kuku iced milo ;P HAHAH and yes, talk so much during studying session ;D haha! the noisiest kiddo you can ever study with. but dear, you made it up by sending me songs ;D HEHEH! & you're FOREVER late. poor cecilia has to wait for you lo! TSKTSK. haha!

heheee ;D alright, ilovestnicks ;D
heheh! and poof, i dont wanna run3.3! ARHH!laziness on the toll :P hahahahs

short quick post before i go to slp. yawns a million;D hahah! oh yes ah, i finally packed finish my notes.after well, 6 hours ;D HAHAH! lol with intermediate breaks & procrastination ;D hahah! LOL! just wanted to leave all the stuff lying on the floor & slp in a 'paper factory' (quoted from kai!) hahah! but heh, i think i'd crumple them ;D hahah! so i decided not to. hahah! but i really dont mind just slping on them. yawns. hahah! stupid mountain of notes. now there's like files and files of them. & i dont know which or where to start studying from! hahah! and yes gg back to st nicks to study tml ;D AH SO EXCITING! ;D HEHE! cant wait yo! ;D and yes, i btr get some slp soon.

&well, lameo says i shld invest in staple bullets cos my notes are fallin out. haha well, fan's lazy & forgetful to get any yo! ;D HAHAH! aye yes, so everything's been settled & nods, i've sorta replenished my slp tho it still gets kinda mentally draining. i donnoe. aftermath. hahah! ;D but yeps, jus gotta slp more ;D SLP is very IMPORTANT FOR HEADACHES, coughs ahem yes at some defiant PTP;D hahahh! ;D nods was really really happy back in sch today ;D wheeheee, finally stepped back into the odac room & seeing all that nice familiar faces after donnoe how long! HEHE! ;D okay. not very long. but still, im used to see my dears everyday! ;D haha! captain's ball was well, okay, qt easily tired out today & den went for lunch with jol,kai &hammie at pp. & after that went to bodyshop to get showergels which were on offer ;D haha! yippee doo! ;D no more passionfruit tho ;D haha! strawberry's good too! ;D got ivie the papaya one;D HEHE!

alright yo, needa head to slp like this instant. nightsy loves, keep safe & take care ;D oh yeah, take care tong! sorry i didnt go send you off at the airport. take heaps of care in japan & most importantly, have fun ;D enjoy yourself dear! ;DD

and yeps, on a happier note, it's ZHANLIANG DOGGY'S BIRTHDAY TODAY! ;D happy birthday boy! sorry i cant be there but i really really hope you love the presents heaps ;D aww, ur lovely yellow kennel with red roofs ;D hehe! LOVELY! hope you hav a pleasant lovely day! ;DD GRINS!

and yeps, i cant say enough thankyous to all you loves, for the comforting hugs, talks, msgs, notes, and cyclone bakers' cupcake ;D thankyou dears for alw being just there;D iloveyouall. pls keep safe and happy you lovelies ;D

been a freaking crazy week i swear, but things' been handled well. sometimes when things fail you, you just gotta deal with it ;) there's no such things as losing faith, losing hope just as long as you hung on tight to them.. well, dont lose hope or faith in every other thing if just something fails you. this, is what i believe in ;D

pls let grandpa find peace in heaven..
i pray.

and it's been pretty long since i felt this way ;D the pleasant way of craziness ;D not to the extent of really crazy! but yes, im high and well,governed by my instincts to be high and driven by adrenaline to be high! HAHA! JUMPS ARD. i just cant seem to get the excitement outta me ;D HEHE! i feel like just jumping ard madly ;D HEHE! aye! LOVELY ;D and the thing is it drowns all tiredness in you and heh! laughters are good ;D hahahah! they make you happy ;D HEHEHE! hello you all lovelys, care for some highness yo? ;D HAHAHAH! alright!

thot i wouldnt have survived at all today! alright fine, i didnt exactly survived! but i TRIED staying awake but heh, succumbed to temptation to fall deep deep aslp! HAHAH! LIKE ZOMG! i slept throughout all lectures (except for math! cos i decided that sincei started listening to complex, i might as well NOT GIVE UP on my first chapter that i actually listen to! and yay! i understand complex numbers ;D imma not that stupid after all ;D HAHAH! ) but no matter how hard i TRIED to keep awake for chem today, i really really cant ;/ and boom, i died for the like the first first qns of the mcq test/practice! WAHAHA ;D man seriously, they speak foreign languages to me ;D chem speaks foreign languages to me no matter how much they wish to be acquainted with me! :D HAHAHAH! alright still died for the lessons! but nods, i came to realise that the mind's really really powerful. i could have just keep thinking that i am VERY tired which i really was and just lead a very sian/tired/want-to-die kinda day ;D but yeps, the mind's amazing and it carried me thru all tht highness till now! ;D HURRAY! and if you think good of everyth, everyth's gg to be fine ;D a positive mind sets everyth gg yo! ;D HEHEH!

and gosh, the underground pipes down my house's like crazy. VERY crazy, it's like... the water is sprouting like some goodness fountain. and apparently the big pipes below burst. ha, and den now it looks like im living in a flooded town. lol. yeps. a funny sight and there;s like some urgent construction gg on ;D

and just a random thot since my term 2's endin;D just sth reflective. aye, i dont know, i feel excited that holiday's gg to start! but poof that only meant i've to study!POOF! ;( which is not very good. aye! and yeps, many many stuff happened this term. gotta say, there's just heaps of ppl to thank (the list's too long to be generated really, but yeps, to anyone who's shared with fan even a teeny bit of happyness, thanks ya loves heaps;D i really appreciate everything lil thing ;D;D there're many a times where stuff just pile up and one cant cope and times where some major stuffs happen & we cant react rationally and let emotions get the better of us. i swear i aint anyone who handle bad stuff really well, but the least is, fan's learning ;) learning to is better than not trying at all ;D to fall and to stand back up again fast ;D and to face up to whatever's that ever falling bravely ;D and yes, of cos, one cant do w/o the support of family and friends ;D thankyou heaps to all the dears who's been standing by, and jsut lending support alw ;D and definitely of cos there's heaps of events to rmb and etched deep in the mind, lessons learnt, happiness and joy shared ;D been grateful and really appreciative of the wonderful companions alw, right from the beginning. i dont know, i've been really much a protected kiddo, at least i dont exactly rmb myself facing with extreme setbacks and im alw meeting and getting to know just the right ppl ;D right persons ;D extremely glad for sec 4dee babes who's alw there no matter how busy the schedule was, 07s44 class who's alw so whacky and nv really fails to light up one's day, and not forgetting, odac lovelies who's at everywhere and anywhere just akin to family ;D nv failing to make everything else btr ;D and yes, my online mates too ;D man, i cant believe i only get to talk to some of you online and probably only see you once in my lifetime, but yeps, thanks for sharing so much! cant believe friendships can be forged even in the virtual world ;D
and to you, my family and friends, pls just keep safe alw, and nods, may you have that joy and happyness in your life ;D

ALRIGHT! and yeps, a thot just kinda popped in my head and so i was wishing at one am in the morning (well, i missed 1111 today, and hopefully 0100 works the same). pls bless those in pain & those in need ;) yeps, may the pain for those victims of all the disasters happening now be lessened much. aye!

and yeps, for arkar boy! pls get well real soon boy ;D and quit straining your hands pls ! :D HAHAH! take good care yea! or you deserve whacks! ;D GRINS! ;D

aww shucks, mom and dad have to rush out now cos hospital just called. freak, and grandpa's supposedly in danger/critical condition. aye ;( pls, let him be fine. i know he'll.

and yes, im keeping my fingers crossed and maintaining a really really positive mindset. dont fail me pls ;D

today wasnt exactly what i wanted it to be ;/ woke up feeling happy and darn, stupid gastric killed on the bus coupled with an everlasting cramp that nv really left the entire day till now. but yeah, was still happy throughout kinda ;D heh! my highness didnt wear off much from the long weekend tho ;D yeps! and sucky thing today was arkar boy fell and fractured both wrists. ah boy, take care alot alot alot dear! ;D and nods, please get well real soon ;D i know you will ;D and man, arkar boy was sooo tough and strong today ;D aye! so pls come back to us soon, im sure can one! a million grins! and YES, can come back and help me finish all my foood!!! ;D HEHEH! rest well and take care alot boyy! ;D

and so yeps, thank you NTN(nasty-turned-nice) ;D hehe! ah, i really miss talking to you. like just rambling alot. and it's been so long yea! but nods! i received the letter from you, and as expected, the handwriting was freaking horrifying. bleags!:P HAHAH! just kidding my dear ;D haha! but thanks heaps alot alot & you nasty, nastily forgot abt me! ;P

aye, and so today wasnt the best day i thought out to be. things happen outta our control. many many things.. and lameo says that imma too emotional to handle my own feelings. alright yes girl, i admit that i wasnt in complete control of my own emotions and things just turn otherwise what i intended them to be ;/ poof, but yeps, a positive mind sets everyth gg ;D and i shall attribute these to be yet another bad/weirdo day to get my mind over ;D tml's gonna be so much a btr day! ;D

aye! alright! a new post today! and poof, it's nth like that of the past few day's i swear! nods, i assume this's gonna be a really short post since it's kinda an unearthly hr now and imma gg out tml! ;D hehe! so yeps, cant overslp! or i may be slaughtered! HAHA! alright! fan's a happy kiddo today, happily transferring songs to the ipod, converting videos ;D yes yes videos ;D and got soooo happy watching them agn ;D ah, i get to see my cute hae in action agn! LOL! he's retardedly/charmingly/adorably cute! ;D HEHE!! ayee really happy.

and then, i started watching miracle mv agn, and it made me really happy. i dont know, this song's gotten a really special effect on me ;D heh! it makes me contented ;D or rather i say, it reminds me to be contented ;D sometimes we just get overwhelmed by small big sadness that seemingly make us seem to overlook the tiny and large happiness that's even occuring at the same time ;D and yeps. we alw want to seek for the better, to want more happiness to want more joy to want alot alot more and yeps, subconsciously, we're all fragile beings, inevitably affected by bad stuff that throws your entire mind and toys with your emotions and feelings. and i guess it's only right for us to feel that cos we're all humans you see. but yeps, what makes it saddening is that we fail to place in great importance what we alr have, and we fail to see beyond the sadness, the bad stuff that the element of happiness will still be present anyhow. it's just that it's overshadowed by sadness ;D

'life couldnt get better' you tell yourself that, you're a contented person just the way you are and even if you fall, you stand up smiling agn cos no matter what small big sadness they are, they aint gonna get you down when you believe in 'miracle's ;D

MUAHAHA, I LOVE MY LOVELY HAPPY WHACKY SUJU! :D THEY'RE MY INSPIRATION! ;D

aye! despite slping really really really early and i think sufficient for the past few days, i admit and swear i wasnt in the best of mood these days. and im really really really sorry to whoever i've ever lost my temper to or probably wasnt in the best state to talk to in fact. cos the mood fluctuates worse than the ups and downs in the rollercoaster. aye, and i wish very much to attribute it to i dunno.. pms probably. ah, nods, but just really really pretty much in a daze and just feeling nua3 these days and yeps, i dunno i could be dead one moment and then, overexcited for the next. haha. is that a sign of gg crazy.hahah;D i wonder! ;D too much slp maybe! hahah.

aye, but anyhow, today was volleyball finals but yeps,it was really really exciting man ;D haha i was like. ah, my heart's abt to thump out every single moment. poof;D damn freaky. but yeps, even tho they didnt win it, i think it was a great match still. had a great time cheering and watching it ;D and great job to the vjvballers!! ;D ahwhee! and ytd was soccer girls finals! WHEE and vj won!;D like hurray, it was a close fight really and yeps we won 6-5 in penalty ;D ah, it was so heartstopping, so exhilarating. and everything and everything! ;D but really, both teams were good;D managed to see lingy and vivian at the stadium ytd ;D happyhappy ;D had dinner after that and went shopping abit here and there. animal,mph and just roaming abt. haha lol.

today's plain weird, i wasnt even focusing. like i get andrew asking me abt some stuff and den i didnt catch anyth at all cos i was in a daze, unfocused somewhere. and aye, it's jsut weird up down left right. like sth bad's gonna happen. poof ;( but i tried to keep bad thoughts away, tried to make myself happy and stuff. imma tough and strong yo! and i can overcome every thing! ;D nods! and my sincere prayers and wishes to shifu who's having her acl op tml ;D jiayou you daedanhada shifu!;D will bully you after ur op! :P dont think u'd be able to escape from us ya! ;D
and nods! grandpa just got admitted to the hospital probably an hr or two ago. aye, prayers for him too.
i know they'd be fine. (:

and yeps, hope this unhappy/mood fluctuating syndrome stops ;D nods. i wanna be happy happy happy ;D!

and whee, im reading a book finally ;D

heyyyooo loves! ;D blogging agn! ;D and yes that's cos i reached home early today ;D oh man! and i realised that i havent been paying much attention to the new updates of my boys ;D haha MY. LOL! okay, i dont claim ownership of them of cos ;D hehe! damn, sis was updating me and gosh, no more my lovely perfect 13 boys ;( im so saddd cos they're so splitted up. seriously, no matter what i still like it when they were just ONE group. i mean it's good they venture out to more international markets and such. but i want suju as ONE ;( it got me really upset seeing that they;re all over the world in small groups. poof, i miss them together in action sooo much! ;( i want my lovely 13 boys back together pls! aye, and i miss seeing so much of my lovely cute spastic hae in action! ;D hehe! i love watching his old videos. he's such an ADORABLE DORK! ;D and man, i still love hearing him speak in KOREAN! poof, even tho he's starting to speak chinese now. aye but of cos, im happy seeing them receiving more recognition even in the chinese market now, happy for hae esp. but aye, it just sucks seeing the 13 of them not together being the extremely whacky bunch that never ever fails to put a smile on my face anymore. ;( POOF. but im happy as long as they are ;D

grins. and that's abit of complaining done ;D hehe!but you know, those just aint enough to express the sadness within me ;( poof, seriously, ppl just think we're plain foolish. who gets upset over such stuff seriously. hahah, but i do! and many others do! i know lingy's gg to agree with me ;D hehe, well, i miss getting my motivation from them, i rmb how everyday used to be soooo happy cos ah, i watched just a simple clip of them, how i can just smile every single day in bliss and happiness! ;D ahhh haengbok ;D i miss those days really! aye, and i rmb their album of songs tide me thru olvls ;D but aye, it was THOSE DAYS again. i guess it's this emptiness that i feel within me. how incomplete it felt esp after being so reliant on them for one full year ;D i nv regretted tho! hmmhmm, pls let the 13 stay togetherr ;D

nodsnods! and heh happy happy! tml's soccer girls finals! okay so it's VJ against SAJC again! arhhh, seriously i hope vj's gonna win! hehe! go VJSG! ;D hehe! but still, im sorta anticipating a good match tml! ;D hehe! good luck to cel and tam who's playing for SA too! ;D OMG! ;D hehe! it's so exciting being able to watch my 4dee dears playing ;D hehe! hurray! ;D JIAYOU to all of them! xiang, lorena, cel and tam! ;D heh! yipeeedoo! and vball girls got into finals! hehe! and our class is gg down to support sheila and the team ;D go girls ;D hehe! no stress girl! ;D GAMBATE!

a pretty weird/funny post ;D hahah! GOSH!! IMMA HAPPY! 19mths&2days! i love my boy! ;D

happy lovely mommy's days to all mommys and of course to my dearest mommy ;D i love you mommmy even tho i know i have been a really bad kid. so pls tolerate with my horrible temper ;D right and so, im here blogging after one whole week of hiatus status ;D ahaha, been a pretty busy week, trying to cram my head with chem test and stuff. poof but it's over. i admit it got me pretty stressed up cos eh, i hate doing stuff im being forced into and so, i was forced to study for chem test becos i HAD to. i really hated the feeling ;D hahah! but right, i was happy i did my electromagnetic induction and vectors willingly ;D and poof, i did them! yay! imma continuing with vectors after this. yippeee doo! ;D and i was really kinda surprised i understood vectors. ZOMG ;D im not stupid! hahah!

alright. and i was at liang court with lingy ytd! haha! cel and tam bluffed that they were gg too! haha! but eh, they didnt lah. cos they were too tired after soccer training. haha lol ;D OH RIGHT YEAH! ;D liang court proves to be the best best best place for studyinggg ;D like really. so much memories ;D and zomg, it's simply a feeling of peace and bliss sitting at the same spot i was 3 yrs ago still! ;D haha! oh right, im returning to the same place ;D no more bishan and amk libraries ;/ boycottt! hahah ;D and yes, liang court has starbucks agn! ;D wheehee and many jap food restaurants and whoo kino ;D haha, lingy and i love this place ;D alotalot. and she was prety productive ytd too! and me too! i read and understood the lecture notes for vectors 2 - 6 in a mere 4 hrs with a short 15 min nap in between ;D WHEEHEE! my first time reading those notes i swear ;d oh right, tutorial time laterr ;D and zomg, something exciting to share, the toilet in liangcourt is RED! ;D ahaha! red is the new cool yo! ;D haha! WE couldnt resist the temptation to camwhore in the lovely pretty red ;D



and then, our dinner atliangcourt ;D jap food! hahah! ex ;D but it's worth it! ;D


as usual, lingy was telling me abt rice price inflation ;D hahaha :D YES I UNDERSTAND, but i stil dont finish the rice ;D HAHAHAH!
alright, time for tutorial ;D seeya loves!

helloiello ;D my new way of saying hello ;) wheehee! fan's totally a happy little girl even tho the weather is abit warm and stuffy that totally killed me this beautiful afternn. i think i truly miss my dears alot ;D i feel so happy seeing them, talking to them, mugging with them, rubbishing with them. and yes, today's a good day out with lingy and jia! ;D AHAHA! were at amk lib for the morningg and then got displaced to the mosburger ;/ haha! the weather was unusually (usually) very very very hot. and stuffy that i was kinda feeling stuffed up at my chest and had difficulty breathing LOL! and a very groggy head coupled with some headache. haha! okay that was a tad too exaggerated ;D haha! but there was abit of everything. haha! the weather is BAD ;( lol! but the time passes unusually slow today. i kinda like it, but then again i dont ;D haha but it's fine. fan's a good girl, finished chem kinetics, hydroxy and carbonyl cpds! reading and understanding the TUTORIALS ;D POOFF! *jumps ard! so, lovely dears! do i deserve some ultra bigggie reward? grins a million! HEHE! okay. that was considered pretty productive for a slackkerrr like me. allright, im starting to pick up!

ayee and if any of you reading this blog AINT picking up, den you deserve a smack up down left right. because if this slackkkerr here is, then why ARENT you! ;D right!

and of cos, fan never fails to have fun ;D haha! rewarded myself with a lil shopping trip with the rest! ;D haha! first to artbox in amk hub! my second time this week ;D this time i bought stuff for myself ;D ahhh pretty pretty stuff that made my day really happy ;) this panda brown book with brown empty pages (lol, i bought with no idea what to do with it ;D), a pocket flipbook (i dont know what to do with this too!) ayee, but it was too adorableeee! WAHAHA! a scheduler (ayeee! maybe it'd make me more aware of dates and be a tad more organised ;D hah! it's so cute, imma gg to use it! and yes a nice notebook that says "LOVE & PEACE" but i really like the verse on it

success is not the key to happiness. Happiness is the key to success. If you
love what you are doing, you will be successful.

haha, guesswhat imma gg to do with the notebook! to write my beatiful organic chem notes in it! ;D ARHAHA! ;D den whee! i'd maybe develop a love for organic chem ! ;D ahhh, great tactic huh! ;D immaaa genius! HAHA!

alright. then i went for dinner with lingy, jia had to go home ;( poof. but yeah, lingy and i had dinner then, we decided to go SHOPPPING ;D haha! went into a few shops. tried on some tops, some bottoms ;D but didnt buy any but lingy bought two tops ;D haha! and i wanted to buy canvas shoes! stopped at converse and GOSH! this beautiful red checkered shoes caught my eyes and i fell in love with it. love at first sight i call that ;D mann, and what's the worst thing. ha, the shoes were way too huge. haha they didnt have my size and i thought my feet were big ;/ FREAK! man, i still want that that that that pair of shoes! ;( haha! then, my horrible experience with shoes continued with another pair i saw in the shop ;D haha! this time a green pair with a army green flap ;D heh, still not as nice as the first. but ayee, i dont mind! AND GUESS WHAT, they were too big AGAIN ;/ AHH! i was alr ultra upset! drama drama. i found this pair of shoes that's beige. pretty nice but lingy was like. aye, you're not gg to wear it with vj sch u are you. haha! you'd look monochrome ;D HAHAHA! that got me laughing. haha! yes, it's like the same color. haha! MATCHING shoes! so i decided not to get it. went ard shopping somemore! and yes! i think it was the horrible shoe shopping experience that caused me to buy this other pair of bum equipment shoes on impulse. freak, they were too big;/ haha! but like alw, i buy things in impulse and esp this time, it's catalysed by the fact that i didnt get my other two pairs of shoes that im sick of shoes without my size! and on impulse, i just bought the pretty loose bum equipment shoes. and ended up still very happy abt it ;D HAHAH! okay, i think im spastic ;D LOLOL! but i need a new pair of shoes still. still gonna hunt for my pretty red checkered shoes and yes, with my size pls ;D HAHA!

and that marks my pretty happy day out. studying and wheehee, shopping. ah, im glad i aint feeling the horrible feeling like ytd anymore ;D aint gonna think abt bad stuff bcos they kill you and your mood, making you a grumpy 'pooo'ie (shitty) person! ;D so yeah, hop out and pull yourself outta any sad, unhappy, angry, stressful, depressing thoughts/stuff before you sink in further. and no worries, there'd alw be someone (eh.. hmm, like me!:P) who's MORE than willing to pull you outta them. and that is IF YOU LET THEM ;D

i just wish YOU (you my dears/loves and anyone who happens to read this)'d be happy ;D

man, i like the song 'letitburn' by usher ;D
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HAPPY 18th birthday CELESTIA TAN! ;D hope you had a fantastic bday ;D and yes, hope you like the soccer boots we got for you ;D and yeah! LUCKS for all your matches and seasons! ;D you go girl ;D stay happy and cheery ;DD

second post for the night. dont think i'd be able to slp. but i have to ;( and so imma gg to force myself to fall aslp soon ;D and im ultimately super sad abt the fact that i lost my earpiece for sonyericsson phones ;/ POOF, it just miraculously went missing like that. AH, and my sis's one is missing too. i suspect there's some stupid earpiece addicts out there stealing earpieces ;/ HAHA! alright. very spastic. but uhhh, how am i gg to study with no music ;/

grrr.. wishes dont work! then again, if they come true so easily, there's no joy in making a wish and having it come true ;D

alright, nightsy dears ;D imma gg to try slpinggg ;D

poofy! and fan's supposed to be feeling exceptionally happy after a 8hr long slp ;D from 1 plus in the afternn to 9plus in the night. but apparently not quite ;( and i hate this feeling inside of me. i dont know what it's called but the fact that it's devouring my happiness aint good at all ;( freak. and i know partly why i feel like that ;( poof, okay, and i stopped for a good whole 30 mins after writing the first part ;/ EEKS. okayyy lollipopping time ;D some happiness induced hopefully ;D

alright and yes ytd was a good day ;D goody day! cos i was really really really happy that i did btr than i expected for my napfa;D lol i was so scared initially that i kept jumping ard nervously. i guess it was due to a total bad exp in sec 4 ;/ lol ;D but it went smooth and well this time ;DD i guess less expectations and you'd reap more happiness and satisfaction in the end ;D and probably that's how i felt. haha! extremely high ;D and yah! thanks yufang and yilun! ;D they treated us icecream ;D WHEEHEE! after that, lessons lessons and lessons. survived and tada, went to the room aft that to slack ard ;D haha! slept. and poof, pt was... unsatisfying i must say. it's like the weather was too hot and the mood wasnt there to do anyth at all ;D so yah. it ended pretty fast ;/ went back to the room, attempted to play cards, but decided to slp more ;D bathed and yay, time for dance concert ;D

yeps, the dances were damn nice and got all of us hyped up but freak, the pt was freaking cold and we were like very much freezing ;D thank goodness the good dances kept me in there ;D HEEH! and wheehee, i swear the lil kids guest performers were . WOAH, SO ADORABLE ;D haha! i wanna bring them home! :DD LOL! but overall, the ticket for the dance concert was really worth it ;D hehe! and okay ya, after that, our big plan for shihan's bday starts! ;D HEHE! conned her into believing that very few ppl are gg her hse for stayover den the rest bluffed her they're gg home but in fact are on their way to her hse! ;D hehe! and so that was the surprise for her bday and they lit candles on the grasspatch in the words 'ODAC <3 LS' ;D and we sang bday song for her with a pretty green cake ;D wheehee ;D and her rxn was instant. just cried almost instantly ;D heh! yay! our surprise was a beautiful success tho we well.. fabricated so many lies in between. but it was all for a good cause ;D yay! one conclusion: she was touched ;D and seeing that, we know all our efforts paid off ;D HAHA!

went back to her home andyeps, party started. eating and some even cooked instant noodles and stuff ;D lol. and yeah, decided to play mahjong after tht. lol,happy happy cos lady luck was kinda with me ;D grins. won like 2 or 3 rounds ;D whee. had a 15 min short nap before that and yay as usual, it kept me pretty high and awake for the night ;D and yeps, when all of them were like kinda slping in the end, i was like sitting awake, playing spastic lumines blocks and listening to songs ;D and yeah, just thinking randomly. haha! and alex soh keeps murmuring i dunnowhat in his slp. HAHAH! dozed off at some parts but wake up in the midst. but it was freezing lah. like totally. even with the jacket, it was super cold. decided to head out with hammie to the living room cos both of us couldnt take the cold and heh, had to push alex's legs who were blocking the door away ;D had a pretty decent hr of slp on the dining room table ;D woke up somewhat and just couldnt really get to slp after that ;D stoned, watched ppl slp, listened to music till more ppl wake up. beauty and beast left pretty early and then, all of us waited till all were up and headed to have breakfast ;) gosh, and that was when my tiredness and slpiness were seeping in. was kinda very tired.but heh, the walk was funn with 'ha gao' and 'siewmai' talks and just random rubbish. haha! darryl left during breakfast.after breakfast. headed to shihan's hse, gave her her presents before jia and rach left. and the rest of the girls all gathered in the room, talking. lol, online shopping, friendster hopping and just talking randomly ;D haha! pretty fun ;D haha! while the guys were out there playing xbox ;D went home at 12 plus. and yeps. bathed and didnt even wait till my hair was dry. i just SLEPT all the way till 9 plus, skipping lunch and dinner. and now im feeling hungry. gosh;/

alright. studying tml with some dears in amk lib. hopefully productive. swear i need to get some studying done and quit being sooo slack. not that i can help it but.. gosh, i need some motivation ;( where are you. where where where.
haha that sounds delirious. no worries, not anywhere near being driven to nuts yet.

at the end of the day, it meant nothing.

HIGH - LIGHTHOUSE
When you're close to tears remember
Some day it'll all be over
One day we're gonna get so high
And though it's darker than December
What's ahead is a different colour
One day we're gonna get so high

And at
The end of the day
remember the days
When we were close to the edge
And we'll wonder how we made it through the night
The end of the day
remember the way
We stayed so close till the end
We'll remember it was me and you

'Cause we are gonna be forever you and me
You will always keep me flying high in the sky of love

Don't you think it's time you started
Doing what we always wanted
One day we're gonna get so high
'Cause even the impossible
is easy when we got each other
One day 'we're gonna get so high

And at
The end of the day
remember the days
when we were close to the edge
And we'll wonder how we made it through the night
The end of the day
remember the way
We stayed so close to till the end
We'll remember it was me and you.

'Cause we are gonna be forever you and me
You will always keep me flying high in the sky of love
'Cause we are gonna be forever you and me
You will always keep me flying high in the sky of love

High, high, high, high, high, high, high, high

And at
The end of the day
remember the days
when we were close to the edge
And we'll wonder how we made it through the night
The end of the day
remember the way
We stayed so close to till the end
We'll remember it was me and you.

'Cause we are gonna be forever you and me
You will always keep me flying high in the sky of love (x3)


random: skateboarding is kinda fun! hehe! had my first try on the skateboard ytd in the odac room ;D POOF! it was freaking fun! ;D but im damn lousy at it ;D hahah! but still, first try! HAHAH! YAY! I WANNA BE A SKATER GIRLL!!! LOL! ;DD

ahh! ;D it's really amazing how things sometimes appear in your life agn. haha! take for example, i simply forgot abt the existence of this kinda meaningful song that seemed ever so familiar 'high by lighthouse family'. gosh. a pretty old song, but that was until i heard it again ytd. freak, and i coluldnt rmb the song title at all! and so i racked my brains for it and tada! i found it again! HEHE! it's like subconsciously you have it in your mind ;D and this makes me so happy! ;D SO SO SO HAPPY! ;D to be frank, i really dont know what sorta memories this song brings. i really cant exactly remember. not the slightest hint. but darn, when i heard the song again, it brought a familiar feeling back in me and made me smile so much! jumps ard! NICE SONG ;D but damn, i cant rmb under what circumstances i heard this song. but i think it has kinda some impact in me otherwise it wouldnt have brought that subconscious smile and familiar feeling! ;D man, im getting old that my brains' failing me ;/

ahhh haha! anyw, happy burfday syaz dear today! ;D hehe! and happy birthday ivie love ytd! ;D OMG, i swear i felt all was so worth it when i saw that smile on your face and the fact that you were really touched and stuff ;D all the late nights, going from here to there to everywhere getting the presents done and stuff were absolutely worth it ;D and it's all worth it for that brilliant smile and a special moment on your bday dear! :D HEHE! and that made us really really really happy too! ;D and so, it was ivie's special 18th bday ytd! ;D

thank you dear for alw being there and such ever since from i first knew you in cyclone ;D it's amazing how all of us just got brought together in a small happy group called cyclone ;D zl dog, shh dear, jo daddy, ivie dear and fan ;D hehe, and then, it's amazing how we got thru hard times and there, ended up with being part of the 26 in the lovely amazing 24th batch ;D and yes, throughout, we had so much spastic times and i'd always rmb your spasticness and childishness ;D hehe! we all agreed you're the most spastic girl in cyclone :P! hehe! and not to forget, tough times keep us stronger and more bonded together ;D OLC, OTs, ITC! everything and everything ;D alw there with your dimpled smile, brightening up our life with your spastic comments! and it has been really fun and enjoyable working with you. admin comm for reunion, DARE comm dept and yes, my first race partner ;D thank you for being part of everything that'd alw leave a smile on my face ;D AH, IVIE LOVE! i love you! ;D and i cant say enough ;D

HEHE! peektures will be up soon enough. bt cos my cam batt died, i cant load it in my com yet ;D hehe! aye yes, today's labour day and i was out! it was kinda fun. okay, fine. fun cos i was awake and had enough slp. haha! but seriously, my brain got drained for qt abit towards the end ;D but heh, B&Js GOT ME HAPPY AGN! omg, finally satisfied my craving for B&Js. felt i really really needed it at that point of time. i dont like times when i feel unhyped and esp coupled with the fact that i shldnt be feeling that sian or tired bcos of my almost 10 hr long slp! ;D and boo lameo, I GOT MY B&Js IN THE END! smiles and sticks out tongue a million! :D but yeah, no freecone day thrill tho. but iloveit still ;D ayeee! today's a good day stepping in town seeing so many oh-so-cute things! I BOUGHT two ADORABLE TTM files and heh, got myself very contented ;D haha! okay, im a very easily happy person ;D HAHAH! home for dinner and then watched abit of tv and here i am now! ;D

AH HAPPY DAY for almost every moment! ;D yummy yoghurt and ben&jerry's are ultra satisfying ;D and out with the lovely dears beat stoning and den trying very hard to study and yet nth gets into my head totally!! :D aye! and there was a totally hilarious episode today ;D which i shan't elaborate! haha! the whole thing was hilarious! ;D

AH YEA! and that so marks my pretty lovely beautiful day ;D